London POV I walked downstairs to go get something to eat for breakfast cuz a mf always hungry, and I thought I would see Antwan downstairs cuz he wasn't in my room or the guest room sleep so I didn't know where he was. Milan groaned and walked downstairs.. "Mama I'm hungry" Translation: mama whatever you about to eat... make double. "Okay pooh. I'll make you something to eat, but have you seen your dad?" "Nope" I sighed & pulled out my phone to text Antwan to see where he was at.
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Ion know why he just thought he could get up and just leave without even telling me. So when he come back over here we most definitely talking about the issue. No ifs , ands, or buts about it.
When he got here the kids were gone with Alexis , because she took them & Nova out on a lil fun day type shit.
He walked in and sat across from me at the kitchen table. "what'd you wanna talk about?" He asked looking irritating "First of all.. I'm mad at you for just leaving. You didn't even tell me where you were going , and second of all why'd you leave?" "Cuz G. Ya pops was right.. like I really left you..and thought that it was gon all be okay when I got back, and now we bouncing back so fast , and you forgave me..ion deserve that. Ion feel like enough for you."" "Antwan..yes you do and you most definitely are enough for me, because unlike my father I see that you're trying to change boo. I do..and ion give a fuck about what he was talking about so neither should you." "I know, but I'm not tryna be holding you back..you was doing good when I was gon so I thought .. lemme just step out ya way and to life can go back to how it was." "Antwan I should slap you. You're not holding me back, and it might've seemed like I was doing good , but I really wasn't & I really didn't start being happy again until you came back. I fuckin love yo dumbass.. and I wouldn't have thought I would still love you even after all the shit we put each other through , but I do. So don't you ever think you're not enough for me. Fuck what anybody else gotta say."
"Damn.. you ain't have to get all deep on me." "I just wanted you to know that I love you." "I love you too baby." "Dont ever leave me again without letting me know. Had me all worried and shit." He laughed , but I was deadass. "I gotchu" I gave him a tight hug. "So.. instead of just leaving. Remember you gotta be able to communicate with me. I just can't know what's on your mind T. Aight?" "I hear you.." "You better. Don't pull this shit again." He laughed "sounding like my mom and shit." I shook my head & chuckled "I'm for real though Twan." "I hear you London.."
He didn't come back tho. He said he'd stay at the hotel until he found a place .. I was mad at him fr , because I didn't want him staying in a hotel. That's a lot of money already. I would suggest he go stay with him mama , but they not on speaking terms.
The day he came back he went to go see his mom.. she was startled when she seen him.. I mean I was too. She said that he needed to go & that she didn't wanna see him no more. I understand why she's upset , but if your son just came back saying he faked his death because of a good reason then you should listen.
When the kids got back home I told them that Antwan left . They were sad, because they thought we were gonna be together & be a happy family and allat lil shit. That's why I didn't want the kids to see me and Antwan together so much, because then they'd get the idea that "Oh yay! Momma and daddy are back together" And that was never the case. Ion even know what me & Antwan are on right now. This some high school shit & ion want no high school shit.
I wanna be married & grow my family.. but I don't even know if I'm fully ready for that anyways. At the moment The Twins , and Alexis my only real family fr...and Antwan I guess..
My mom & dad been acting fake. Kai act like he can't speak to me no more...and Maya is just ..Maya. She don't care about what we been through or nun of that all she know is that I'm her big sister and she loves me.
I wish the rest of my family had that mentality, but nope.
Those the fakest mf's ever fr. I might just stating riding solo dolo until I get my life back on track. Cuz rn this mf off the damn tracks.
