Heartbeat

One Last Time

Taemin's POV

I can't believe what just happend. Hours ago we are making love, laughing with the silly usernames my hyungs would come up with, eating the food she cooked for us. Excited to let the world know about us. But right now, I'm not even sure if there's still us. All I have now is the ring on my hand. I'll give anything and everything just to see her wear this again. I want her back.

No, I need her.

I have to talk to Ji Yeon. I really don't know what to say now that I'm facing her. 

"I'm sorry Taemin. I-I didn't know she's here. I shouldn't have said that in front of her." Ji Yeon said as I sat in front of her. 

"And what? Lie to her again? She doesn't deserve all this Taemin! I can't believe this! I'm sorry but I'm not listening to any of these bullshits anymore." disappointment clearly audible from Kibum's voice. He stands up and enter his room. I deserve this. I deserve all the hate in the world. 

"Please try to understand him, you know how much he cared for Mina." I'm just thankful for Minho hyung for saying that and also to Jonghyun hyung who stayed with me though I know, they are far from being okay with all of these.

"I don't want to ruin anything between you and your girlfriend but our child needs a father Taemin." she said looking at me.

"How can I be sure it's mine?" I know it's harsh but I really want to make sure.

"I don't sleep around! There's a lot of ways to prove that this is your child, I'll let you do all the test you want once I give birth." she's on the verge of tears again. I suddenly felt guilty, if what she's saying is true, then it's my child she's carrying. 

"I'm sorry, I was just..shocked" and broken I wanted to add but I decided not to. There's no need to state the obvious.

"I know, I am too. I'm confused, I really don't know what to do. My mom kicked me out of the house when she learned my condition and I have nowhere to go. I can't go back to modeling at this state." she's crying again.

"Hush, stop crying now, it won't be good for the baby." Jonghyun hyung reminded her.

"What do you want from me? I can support you financially, but if it's relationship you want, I'm sorry I can never give you that." Words aren't coming right from my mouth. It always came out harsh. I'm thankful my hyungs are still around to fix it for me. I'm so tired to think. 

"You can stay here for the mean time until we find a place for you." Minho hyung suggested.

"Are you sure?" now Ji Yeon becomes hesitant.

"If you don't have anywhere to go, then you better stay here. So Taemin can look after you." I know it is the right thing to do but I wanted to protest when Jonghyun hyung said it. Is she going to sleep in my room? No, I can't let that happen. Mina's scent is all around my room and I want it to stay that way.

"You can sleep in my room since it's the cleanest, next to Kibum's. I'll just go share with Minho."Jonghyun hyung must have read my thoughts.

"Is that all your things?" Minho pointed at the gym bag she has with her. 

"This is all I can get from the house before mom kicked me out." she said wiping her tears.

"You should rest for now. I'll show you the room" Jonghyun helped her with her things. I just sat there,wasn't even able to say anything.

"What happened Taemin? This so not like you. How could you do this to Mina?" now I can hear disappointment from Minho hyung's voice when we are left alone in the living room.