Sasuke threw his body at his bed, he couldn't stop thinking how could he sleep or breath after all these memories, if it wasn't for Itachi he would have been one of them too that exile if itachi hadn't ask the third hokage he would have been there asking for the revenge for the person who had killed one of them that night when Orochimaru sent him came to his head as clear as the moon in the dark sky
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Without any fear from the lighting sky and dark night Sasuke jumped from one tree to the other heading to that small house far and far from the people Sasuke stood between the trees looking at the house near the river the same person who was ordered to bring to Orochimaru was living there as a fisherman hiding from everyone keeping his power to himself Sasuke walked to that house slowly wanting to face this man so he kicked the door open and stepped inside the man had probably expected some company because there he was standing trying his hardest to defined what left for him, because there he was standing with an axe glaring hard at the intruder, Sasuke looked at all the few doors around him they were locked.
Then he stepped calmly forward to the man and in few minutes he threw him in the ground letting him
Enjoy his last minutes in his life, Sasuke looked at him with a lot of questions filling his head.
He wondered if this man had expected to life this long? Or if he had expected the end of his life to be like this? How was he when he was a kid?
The room went quiet and as Sasuke headed for the door to leave, So many knocks in the locked door behind him stopped him "Honey, are you alright?" A women's voice whispered behind the door then louder knocks filled the quiet place "Papa, are you ok?" A kid? Sasuke looked at the dead body in the floor (his family?) the knocks were louder now?
"Honey?!! Are you there?!" Her voice wasn't as quiet as before she knew something was wrong
Then the kid started on crying and now the woman had to struggle with two problems her husband and her daughter. Sasuke didn't feel sorry nor sad but something inside him felt cold annoyingly cold.
It wasn't regret but he felt disgusted not by himself but something else, He blamed the dead man for having a family when he was already being chased by so many people, he shouldn't had a family of he couldn't take care of them.
Sasuke stepped to the man laying on the floor and he knew that the woman behind the door had shut her daughter when she heard his steps because they suddenly went silent Sasuke didn't go after them he came here for this person only, he turned the man by his foot then he noticed something.
The man had seals around his wrists and neck
They had forbidden him from using his ninjitsu but who did this? He didn't care to find the answer of the question but now he knew why this man held an axe and why Orochimaru had asked for him but when he didn't came he killed him, Sasuke didn't know why but he carried the dead body and threw him in the river letting the water take him to a far place the he left.
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The tears rolled down from his eyes, how many mistakes he had done? And for what he done that for power, power to kill his dear older brother. Now he was in the same man's place, he finally knew why that man built a family? And what made him live far from people and the reason for having a wife and a daughter
Sasuke but now he had new questions.
Whatever happened to his family? How did they knew it was him? Sasuke felt the guilt and regrets now. Why? He just knew about that they were exiled people from villages and he did as the villages wanted they didn't even look for the man's body.
He wondered if he would be in the same place if his brother didn't ask for protection for him? Was the same mistake he had done would go back for him?
He would be there with them asking to revenge someone's death. How was he going to continue this life? What is the reason to live it? Why did he keep breathing? He had threw himself for them and yet here he was laying on his bed alive.
Why? What was the huge reason he had to continue this? What does life had for him in the future? They said that if you had so much pain in your life you will have so much happiness in the future? What was the biggest gift that's waiting for him? Sasuke closed his
Wishing that he could skipped his life to see his bright future but as soon as he closed them he heard a knock on his door, he didn't want to open it he wanted this bed to swallowed him and hide him from this world but the person behind his door won't go away so he got up swearing to murder whoever is behind that door he opened the door wearing the worst glare he had but those white swallowed all his madness and he wore this dumb look with raised brows then all his thoughts before a minute came back "May I come in?" Sasuke opened the door wider so she could pass "it's been a while since I came here?" She looked around like this was her first time here then she turned to him holding the bag higher "I brought some cake and cinnamon rolls if you're interested" he hated sweets but he couldn't say anything else as she went to the small kitchen and prepared tea for both of them then she sat on the table not on the chair she was facing him and she was close too. He kept calm despite the outburst inside him that threatened to explode .
She offered him the tea and prepared the sweets then looked into his eyes with her smile then he saw it, the color that was painted on her cheeks revealing her secret (drunk?) but not completely a little.
"They said sweets are the best thing for mental breakdowns" she sipped from her tea and he took his
Without tasting it (so it didn't work?) Naruto had said that he will makeup for her but it seemed that they fought, Was Naruto so crazy to let her go outside alone in the middle of the night? Hinata was a shinobi yes, but he wouldn't let her outside alone not because he will got worried but he won't let her turn his back when she's mad, sad or anything else
He wouldn't accept that she would go to someone else but him, and over that all she came to him?
Was fate trying to cheer him up or tutoring him more? She smiled and leaned close looking into his eyes and sasuke smelled her scent that never fail to make him dizzy "You know When I was a kid I trained hard so hard but not for myself not for my clan or the whole village I did that so Naruto-kun would be proud of me" she giggled when she noticed the small frown in his eyes "and when pain came and destroyed the whole village and killed people and people of my village I didn't fight hard but when Naruto fought him I jumped like crazy in front of pain deciding to protect Naruto-kun" sasuke had only two things in his head why was she telling him that? And he wanted her so badly to stop saying his name "and the war came and I fought but not like everyone else zetsu success in catching me and taking my chakra he even tricked my team and they almost fought killing each other but when Naruto came and lost his chakra and was about to got hit by the ten tailed I jumped again sacrificing myself bravely in front of him so he could live" Sasuke almost jumped not wanting to imagine that "but neji died and not me" Hinata looked down to her cup playing with it to avoid staring at his eyes "and finally two years after i got the chance to be with him" he remembered it too well that time when both of them came holding hands as a couple in the middle of the cheering he didn't even know her name back then and he didn't know if he should wish that time to come back or not "then i threw all the years of training and disappointing my clan and my hard work behind my back working so hard to be a good wife for him and look at me now, where did all of that led to?" You're beside him and not me, you're in his life and not mine he wanted to say that out loud but he couldn't every time she was around his lips couldn't part he kept shut afraid to speak out his feelings "I'm living far from there to avoid meeting him and—" Sasuke went deaf after hearing that what was she talking about? Where? A lot of unspoken questions played inside but he couldn't say anything not when she held his palm with tears in her eyes
"I wasted my life for nothing"
She leaned her face on his laps crying loud and sasuke rested his head back letting her holding his hand more he closed his eyes afraid of himself
(Whatever god I'm asking for, please help me)
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Note: this a short chapter that will explain a lot in the next chapters thank you all for reading
