Dysphoria [q.k + trans!male!reader!]

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Kun

Kun, what the fuck do
you mean you can't tell me?

I'm sorry, I just can't....
I'm not ready.

But I truly am sorry,
I know you've got stuff
going on, after you having that
rough day and your chat with Lucas
I knew you weren't all sunshine
and rainbows, I finally knew
you are just like the rest of us...

Well not exactly, but you still go
through difficult times, I guess I just
thought you had one of those
perfect life's with nothing wrong at all...

But your wrong, my life
is no where near perfect
and yes it may be hard to
tell me why you've been so rude
to me, but please....

please tell me soon....

You know, when I first
joined SM, and was told I'd
be debuting with NCT, I was
so excited to be in such a large group
so that I'd be able to make some
friends to make up for my lack of them
In school, but then you ended up
'Hating' me and I felt
like I was being outcasted again like
school...

I know you have reasons Kun...

I know you didn't mean any harm...

But i was truly hurt,
all I wanted was for you to show up
at the surprise party... but only 20
members came to celebrate
when I'm in a group with 21 other
boys...

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

Give me like two days,
that's all I need and then
I will tell you...

And I promise to smile to you
at the dorms, and start small talk
you and not avoid you or your gaze

Two days.

✖️✖️✖️

Y'all.... NCT Dream Comeback, and then after we get Mark back? What the heck... And Chenle has black hair the first time since debut, Renjun has purple freaking streaks in his hair, Jisung has become Mark Lee, Jaemin has blueish hair, and Jeno legit didn't blink the whole video and was staring into my souls attacking me... and then Haechan, looking basically like Kick it Haechan even the outfit, yet still some how making me react like this is crazy and imma gonna die