Between Dusk and Dawn (Love Lies in Ilocos Norte) COMPLETED

XVI

His clothes and mine felt like walls between us even though they are just mere clothing. It felt like walls, and the temptation to break them down is very strong.

His hands inside my shirt are roaming but giving more attention to my bosoms. I felt my hands moved on their own, exploring him.

His lips went back to mine. And at last I found the thing I am finding; his.

As a student studying nursing, I know how his thing works. And right now it's in its erection.

He was very hard underneath his trousers.

He groaned at the middle of our kisses. And when he moved, our kiss broke off.

Napasigaw ako nang muntikan na akong mahulog. Nakalimutan kong nasa upuan lang pala kami and we can't move too much.

Hingal na hingal ako while still on top of him. He is grinning below me.

He sat up and made me sit on his lap. He buried his head on my shoulder. Nararamdaman kong humihinga rin siya ng malalalim. He is hugging me from behind.

Sinubukan kong humarap na naman sa kaniya para sana ipagpatuloy ang naudlot na ginagawa, pero mas hinigpitan niya ang yakap niya.

"Stay", he said in a hoarse voice.

I placed my hands on his arms, "Take me to your room."

"No" mariin niyang sabi.

Kunot ang noo kong sinubukan siyang tignan pero hindi ko kinaya dahil sa yakap niya.

"Bakit?" I don't want to think things na baka hindi niya nagustuhan ang ginawa ko for I made him hard.

He raised his head, "I want your first to be special."

Hinawi niya ang buhok ko at inilagay sa kabilang balikat. He leaned on my neck and I can feel his warm breath.

The tingling sensation came again.

"But this is special", I closed my eyes trying to concentrate on our conversation.

Naramdaman ko ang labi niya sa leeg ko, "It's not."

I closed my eyes harder. This is the hard thing not yet wasting your first at my age.

"Paano kung hindi ito ang una ko?" I tried to fool him.

He chuckled, "I very well know that I'm your first boyfriend. There's a big possibility, I'm will also be your first."

Nairita ako sa sinabi niya.

"What if I was raped before?" natawa ako sa sinabi.

Hindi ko pa naimagine ang sarili ko ba pumailalim sa ganoong sitwasyon, maliban ngayon.

"I don't think so", he is confident. "But tell me names, I'll hunt and kill them."

There's something in his voice na nakakatakot kahit pa nagbabanta lamang siya.

Inihatid niya ako pauwi at hindi naman nagtanong si Mama dahil maaga pa naman.

Ganoon rin ang nangyari next day. Sinundo niya ako sa paaralan told me that we were out for dinner again.

But instead to his house, sa isang restaurant kami kumain.

I will chose eating in his house rather than going to a restaurant, kahit ba iyon ang pinakamagandang restaurant na meron sa mundo.

Damn privacy is not in the restaurant's vocabulary. Hindi ako makalapit sa kanya, I can't even kiss him for goddamn sake.

Nang inilapit ko ang kamay ko sa kamay niya ay galit pang tumikhim ang matandang masa tabi namin.