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❝ maybe if i change ❞ kth part three - angst

[🌙] : title : ❝ maybe if i change ❞
[✨] : type : angst
[🍂] : member(s) : kim taehyung
[🍁] : side note : this chapter is still apart of elsabeatrisrn6 's idea.

also, please read the author's note at the end of the chapter. please.

it's very important.

—taehyung—

Why does it hurt so much?

The pain of seeing her just walking past me. The pain of knowing that she didn't pay me attention anymore.

The pain of having to see her cooped up alone.

It was breaking me. But I had to hold on.

Mina and I broke up already. We didn't even last a month. If only I wasn't that naive. I knew that she only used me for the fame.

I deserve this pain right?

"Ma'am?" I snapped out of my trance upon hearing her voice. I glance beside me and saw y/n raising her hand. "Can I please exchange seats with jeon jungkook?"

My eyes widened.

Please no. This is the only time I get to be close with you.

Wow. How ironic. I was the one begging now.

"Okay then. Jeon Jungkook, exchange seats with Miss Y/N." I opened my mouth but no words came out. I watched as she stood up and walked away from me.

I really did lose you huh?

🌙

—y/n—

Sitting down on the bench, I sighed. My eyes wandered around the place. I was currently behind the school building, waiting for someone.

"Ah I can't believe you're actually waiting for me."

I turned, a small smile appearing on my lips. "Yeah right. You know damn well this is my only hangout place."

He giggled, sitting beside me. We both sat there, silence engulfing the air. I then whined, noticing his gaze on me.

"What is it? Why are you staring?" I said, facing him.

"I'm just happy that I can bring this side out of you." he said. "I might not be the first reason you changed but atleast I'm your reason now am I right?" He smiled and my eyes softened.

"I'm happy I met you hoseok." I whispered, cheeks turning red. "Please stay with me until the end."

"Of course I will."

🌙

—taehyung—

Again, she walked by the halls, hands on her pockets. Just like every other day, she paid no attention towards me.

I've had enough. I want you back.

I chased after her, holding her wrist. She turned, frowning but as she saw me, her eyes immediately widened.

"Taehyung let go." Now I'm the one going to let you go?

"Please let's talk. I can't take this anymore." I pleaded.

"Taehyung what is it with you? Why the sudden change?" That hurt more than it should. "Didn't you want me to stop bothering you?"

"Let's talk. Please." I pleaded once again. I was desperate.

"Fine." she sighed. "At the rooftop. After school."

— time skip —

your pov

You faced him, hands on your pockets. You then frowned as you noticed how tears were brimming his eyes.

"Y/N. Please come back." he pleaded. "I want you back."

"What do you mean?" you scoffed.

"I miss you. I miss how you give me this small gifts. I miss how you always try to make me smile. I miss how you always want my attention." he held you hand. "I want you back."

"I never thought you could be this selfish taehyung." you scoffed and he looked back up, seeing a tear cascade down your cheek. "You know damn well it hurt me seeing you ignore me and tell me that I bother you."

"And you want me to go back? You want me to go through all that heartbreak again?"

His tears fell as he watched you desperately wiping your tears away. You turned, attempting to run away.

"It hurts me too y/n!" you halted, hearing him shout. "It hurts me seeing you ignoring me and just passing by me like I was never someone you actually loved!"

"Did you ever think about me taehyung?" you said. "That's exactly what I felt before but did you do anything to relieve that pain?"

"You did nothing taehyung. You didn't care about me."

"You're selfish."

As taehyung watched you close the door and head down, he realized one thing.

You never realize how important someone is until you lose them.

[🥂] : author's note
       — so um, regarding recent
            events, i refuse to turn a
            blind eye to it.
            I am aware of the racism that
            continues to worsen and I
            want to voice out my
            thoughts.
            i may not be a popular author
            but i have a platform and I
            want to raise awareness.

please. stop racism.
every single life matters.
no matter what your skin color, nationality or gender is, everybody has the rights to be respected.

don't be scared. voice out what you think is right.

George Floyd's death has been running around the internet these days and it devastates me how humanity is becoming worse and worse.

May he rest in peace and may justice come upon his case.

Again, we are all equal.
Please put that into mind.

[📝] : total word count
        — 853 words