I Promise || Sibling Book 1

Part 41 ⚠️

⚠️ Trigger Warning⚠️

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A sigh heaved out from your lips as you sat on the edge of the bed staring into space with no particular emotion. You slowly stood up again, and walked to the bathroom.

The mirror, something that you've grown a big hate for in the past few weeks. You stared at your reflection, hoping for some miracle to happen and you suddenly change. You hated what you were seeing. You wanted to be pretty and perfect. Not dull and fat.

You've developed an incompatible hate for yourself. You had started seeing as some of the people in your school described you.

"Y/N you've gained a lot of fat?"

"Y/N do you eat all the food in your house? Hahah"

"Hey, what happened to your skin?"

"You used to look so pretty Y/N, what have you done to yourself?"

"I think you just sit and eat whole day."

And what not. You pinched your cheek, pulling to see if there's really some fat. Then you lifted your shirt to see if your belly was really sticking out. And then shook your head to see if your hair is really short and ugly. And you got the answers. The mirror in front you answered.

"Yes you're ugly."

"Very ugly."

"Have you seen your brothers? They're what's called perfect. And look at you, you ugly girl can't even go a day without them."

"You're using them."

Its been enough time for you to get used to it though. But still somewhere deep inside you, it still hurts. When they look at you the second time with a judging expression. Although you try to ignore all of them and pretend that you don't care. But you care, you know every comment being passed about you. You don't talk to people and maintain your distance, even with your brothers. because you don't wanna be termed as selfish and seen as if you're using your brothers.

And at this point, you've trained yourself, to not give a shit about anyone. You don't care about what's happening around you now. All the people have pushed your limits so much that you're done. Done showing that you care. Done making anyone feel sorry. Done being the one always run to your brothers. Done being the polite one. You're done feeling. No matter what people say now, good or bad, it doesn't matter to you anymore.

"Y/N?" You heard someone call from your room, as they knocked on the bathroom door. You sighed and pulled one of your best smiles, and opened the door.

"Yes oppa?"

"I was waiting for you for so long. Anyways do you wanna go to the mall?" Taehyung asked.

You thought for a moment and nodded.

"Sure" No.

"Great then, get changed and come down. Kook, Yoongi hyung and Jimin are also waiting."

"Okay"

He left and you changed into something nicer. Though it didn't quivered the fact that you still saw yourself as an ugly person with self esteem down in hell. You sighed and decided not look at any of the mirrors. You've been doing that for a while now. You tend to not look into mirrors, but sometimes your emotionless self has a sudden upheaval of disgracing yourself so you stand in front of the mirror and curse your heart out. Like you did today.

"I'm ready" You said, making the boys to glance at you as you walked down.

"Let's go child." Yoongi said, "you look cute" he ruffled your hair. Your smile fell at that. But you quickly pulled another one.