No One Knew - H2OVanoss [Book 1]

Chapter 6: Home

Song: Kerli - Chemical

Delirious' POV

As soon as I hit Evan's lips, I felt butterflies in my stomach, my heart skipped a beat. Wait, I'm kissing Evan..? This is.. wrong. I instantly pulled back. I felt sadness hit me all of a sudden, "Evan, I'm sorry. I didn't mea- I..." I trailed off. I looked around,  Lui, Marcel and David looked at me with confusion. I just kissed Evan, it meant almost everything to me, but nothing to him.

I turned to Evan, "I.. should go." I walked over to my stuff and grabbed my bag and phone. I put my mask on and started walking towards the door until someone grabbed my hand, I turned to see who it was. Lui.

"Please don't leave Delirious." He begged, I looked behind him and saw Evan walking towards us. I just shook my head and ran out the front door, and started walking home. I felt tears rolling down my cheeks, my heart cracking more and more with each step I took. It was the heat of the moment kiss. Why am I so stupid? 

Evan was probably disgusted the whole time but didn't wanna be mean and pull back. My mind kept telling me to turn around and go back, but my heart kept telling me to go home. But isn't that the same thing? Evan is home. He knows how to make me smile and laugh when no one else can. He makes my heart speed up whenever we're next to each other.  He's everything to me, and I just fucked up. But I guess that's okay, I always fuck up things.

My phone kept going off but I just ignored it. I knew who it was, it was the gang. Probably telling me to come back. But I couldn't. I don't think I can bring myself to talk to Evan after that.

'Jonathan...'

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Vanoss' POV

I kept texting and calling Jonathan from my phone, but he wouldn't pick up.

Vanoss:Delirious, come back.

Vanoss:Delirious.. please.

Vanoss:Jonathan please answer.

Vanoss:Please?

Vanoss: Don't make me come after you.

Vanoss: Jonathan. Please. We need to talk.

I threw my phone on the couch and sat down. Lui and Craig sat down next to me and rubbed my back. Why did he just leave? That kiss.. it felt wrong at first but.. I never wanted it to stop. When he pulled back I felt my heart slightly crack, and it cracked more when I saw this.. sad look on his face. He ran out because of me, didn't he?

"Evan, I think there's something you should know," David began, I looked up at him, "Everyone knew this.. but you." I raised an eyebrow at him, he looked at Marcel. "Jonathan has had feelings for you, for a very.. long time, Evan." Marcel said, "He didn't tell us, he didn't have to. We knew." Lui added. I hid my face in my hands.  

"Judging by your actions, Evan. You love him too." David said, mumbling the last part. Was this true? Is this the feeling I've been feeling? Love? The reason why I get nervous sometimes when I'm around him? The reason why my actions towards him are different?

I just realized. For a long time, I've loved him.

 I love Jonathan.

Vanoss: Jonathan, please come back. I love you.

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