Hard to Love (Bucky Barnes fanfic)

Chapter 32

"So earlier in the gym, you heard that I'm on birth control right?" I ask, combing a hand through Buckys hair as he lays on my chest. His own rising and falling raggedly after having just railed me for the second time tonight minutes ago

"Mhm." He kisses along my collarbone. I nod, thankful that I didn't have to re-explain the whole thing to him

"We should set some ground rules too," I continue to comb his hair, detangling some knots with my fingers

"What did you have in mind?" Bucky lifts his head just enough to look up at me. I smile as I look all over his features, still in awe that he's all mine

"We need to focus on missions and not the other person whenever we go out on assignments together. It'll help us convince Tony that we can work together and date. So if I say you need to go help civilians, I don't want you to argue, got it?" I give him a knowing look

I can tell he's having an internal battle, along with mentally beating himself up for what happened to me. But I want it to be clear that we stick to the assignments when given them. If we can't do that then we just prove Tony right about the rule. After a minute of silence while he thinks, Bucky finally heaves a heavy sigh

"It's gonna be hard babydoll," his velvety voice soft as he rubs his thumb on my waist as he held it, "but I'll do my best, okay?" He asks with hope in his eyes

I guess that's a start...

"That's all I ask." I sigh out. Bucky lays his head back down on my chest. "Now, as for us, I think we should only see each other a couple nights a week to not draw in suspicion. Or at least until I get these cuffs off." I raise a single arm and examine the bracelet

Bucky didn't seem to like my statement. His head snapped up in disbelief to look at me once more. "I'm not gonna like the answer, but how many nights?"

Yeah I'm not gonna like the answer either but... it's only safe

"Three." I state, a chuckle making its way past my lips as Buckys whole demeanor dropped

"Five."

"Three James," I roll my eyes playfully

It's honestly super cute how desperate he is for me and I hope he knows the feelings mutual. But until we can prove that we're good to both work and date, everything has to be on the down-low

"Four. No debating." He sits back on his knees between my legs, looking down at my naked form as his rough hands glide down my thighs towards my center. "You can't deny me such a pleasantry doll. I already can't have you during the day, now you're taking away our nights." He almost pouts, his blue eyes darkening like a storm over the open ocean. I bite my lip thinking over his proposition

"How about this, we spend four nights a week together AND nights one of us has an actual nightmare. But no sex on those nights. Think you can handle that big guy?" I sit up clutching the bedsheet to my exposed chest and drag a single finger down his torso, a playful gleam in my eyes

Bucky shakes his head with a low chuckle at my final words before leaning down and latching his lips to mine and tugging the bedsheet away from my body. I hum into his mouth before feeling his erection poke my inner thigh

"Seriously?! At least let me get some sleep between sessions." I laugh. Bucky smiles against my lips and lays us back on the mattress, reluctantly granting my wish.

~3 hours later~

"Thought you said we had five months to catch up on," Bucky chuckles, grabbing onto my outstretched wrists and holding my laughing form still. "Can't keep up?" He pins my arms down into his mattress