Hard to Love (Bucky Barnes fanfic)

Chapter 39

*** This chapter will be in Amelia's POV ***

I end the call and can't help but to smile giddily before opening my bedroom door to reveal Natasha holding a small-ish camera bag

"You're lucky Wanda didn't toss this yet." She steps in and I close the door, locking it behind her

"I knew she wouldn't just because she got a new one." I take the bag from her and open it, pulling out the Polaroid camera and the packet of film for it

"Black and white? She didn't have any colored ones?" I ask

Natasha shrugs. "Maybe he'll like black and white better. Now come on, get changed while I figure out this thing." She waves me away and I start rummaging through my dresser

I quickly realize that I only have one set of lingerie and suddenly my whole plan starts to crumble along with my hope. But I never even really thought to buy lingerie, the only reason I have this one is because Nat dragged me out shopping one day. Plus, Buckys never complained about me not 'dressing up' for him before so I never went out of my way to do such. I grab the sheer lacey black outfit and turn to face Natasha, defeat written clear as day on my features. She just finished putting the pack of film in the camera and saw my expression

"This is all I have.." I state, looking down at the bra, thong and thigh highs in my hand. Natasha pauses for a moment before making an 'ah-ha' sound

"We can use his shirts! Men love when their partner dresses all sexy with their clothes." She beams, clearly happy that she found a solution

I reach into his designated drawer and pull out the first thing my hand touched, which happened to be his red Henley

I can make this work

Natasha smiles and motions for me to head for the bathroom and change. I follow her silent order and nearly skip out of the room. I strip of my baggy sweatpants and fitted long sleeve, tossing them to the floor

"Are you sure you're okay with doing this for me Nat?" I call through the bathroom door to her as I slip on the lingerie set

"Wouldn't have agreed to it if I didn't babe." I hear the smile in her voice and it eases my nerves in the slightest

A moment later and I finally get the thigh highs on and look at myself in the mirror. My makeup was fine, Bucky says he likes the more natural look so I didn't go crazy with it when he left. And my hair, well it's clean and brushed but I didn't care to style it since I'll probably be messing with it frequently

The bra part of the lingerie was sheer and had some kind of flowery lace design to cover the nipples, low cut in the center but seemed to 'scoop' the sides of my breasts and hold them together in such a way to make them look rounder than what they were. It also helped that there was an extra strap coming from each shoulder strap that went over each mound and connected between my boobs. I really liked that it was a front clasp as well. The thong was your typical black sheer thong with a 'y' back to accentuate the curve and roundness of my ass

Even though I personally think I don't have much of an ass to begin with but Bucky fights me on it every time I say something. I'll admit I don't look half bad right now though I'm not sure how Bucky sees me as anything remotely 'sexy'. I pinch some skin on my thigh, watching my leg jiggle for a second when I release it

"How's it going in there? Let's see it!" Nat calls from the other side of the door

I sigh and slowly open the door, revealing myself to her. Her eyes scan me over as I stood in the doorway feeling both insecure and self conscious the more Nat looked at me