Hard to Love (Bucky Barnes fanfic)

Chapter 83

Have y'all checked out Nix Akimbo yet? Can you tell I'm obsessed with them? *chefs kiss*

"I can't believe it!"

"I know!"

"Guys relax, we don't even know what his reaction will be." I shush both Nat and Wanda, rolling over on my bed holding my phone with their faces on the screen

Nat looks taken aback but smiles, "you know what it'll be Mel! You're gonna be knocked up before New Years with the way you two go at it." She finishes her sentence with a playful wink

Wanda nods her head in agreement, taking a sip of what I'm assuming to be tea from her mug. "So, did you figure out how you are going to drop the news on him yet?" She asks

This time it's my turn to nod, an eager smile tugging at my lips. "I'm keeping the receipt from the clinic saying I had my IUD removed, and putting it in an envelope to give to him as a gift for Christmas." I state, holding up said envelope with the sheet of paper inside

I went and got the damn thing taken out some time last week. Had to use the excuse of having a really bad period to keep him out of my pants

Though he did tempt me

But, in all fairness, I think it's a cute way to approach this. Definitely wasn't going to ask to keep my IUD and give it to him and proclaiming 'let's have a baby!' The sheet has the name of the clinic, what the process was called, and my signature at the bottom. If Bucky decides he wants to wait a bit longer, no harm, no foul. I just go back in to refresh my birth control

"No grand gesture?" Nat arches a brow

"Have we been the type to do 'grand gestures'?" I ask, putting air quotes around her words

She seems to agree, simply shrugging. "Well I think it's great. Congratulations, and let us know the verdict." Wanda chimes in cheerfully, a warm smile on her face

I nod in thanks to them both, thinking over all the conversations we've had the past few weeks since I had the idea. Christmas Eve is tomorrow and the both of them have been my saving grace. From helping find a good gynecologist to just encouraging me to do it. At one point I started bawling late at night on the phone with them

"But my body will be ruined!" I sob out

Wanda coos to console me while Nat scoffs

"You're body took on an entire Infinity Stone, don't think a child will 'ruin' it."

I pause to accept her statement, hot tears bead down my flushed cheeks as I do so

"What if he finds me ugly afterwards?" I wipe my wet cheek with the back of my hand. I'll have loose skin, stretch marks everywhere, not to mention my vagina will tear and I'll have to basically wear a diaper with an ice pack in it

"You really think Bucky is the type to do that?" Wanda asks, resting her chin in the palm of her hand

"He's not." Steve's voice comes from somewhere off screen behind Nat, followed by the click of a door shutting

All our eyes go wide in fear, the three of us being the only ones to know this secret. Wanda and I go dead silent as Steve approaches Nat, kissing the top of her head

"Whatever it is, he's not the type." He states, taking the spot next to Nat. "What exactly is it?" He asks, scanning the phone screen curiously

We told him I was thinking of getting a tattoo and I was panicking over Buckys opinion on the subject