i have always been so careful with words
when i talk about myself
i have become a master
of saying exactly how i feel
without saying anything at all
i have told you a thousand times
that i am not okay
that i don't want to be here
that i am unhappy with who i am
and who i am becoming
i've concocted the perfect string of words
so you don't even notice what i've said
that way it's not my fault
because i did try to tell you
it would be so much easier
to just tell the truth
but again i've never really lied
just making excuses
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PoetryStarted early 2018 ⚠️TRIGGER WARNINGS⚠️ - sexual assault mentions - suicide mentions - self harm mentions - themes of depression - themes of anxiety