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i dont know what to do with myself

i can't help but compare myself to others. yep hey talk about their trauma and how terrible their lives are, and they are definitely worse than mine. but i rewatch the video and see their room. their clean white walls, the spotless white rug and wood floors. pretty rafters decorated in vine. the ring light and semi professional filming space. organized shelves, a vanity with no clutter. the clothes they wear are strictly their style and fit them perfectly.

how did you get there? how did you go from the start to now? if you started off worse than me, how could you possible be better than me now? what is the secret to feeling like you have your life together?

you never know what their dealing with outside of their room, or even outside of their home. and i know it is unfair to judge. but if they can at least pretend to be okay, why can't i?