Engaged [z.m.]

Chapter 21: Hurt

C H A P T E R   T W E N T Y - O N E

Perrie

I changed into some plain comfy clothes for rehearsals first thing next morning. I was running a little late since I had slept later than I thought. I was supposed to be at the studio at 10 and it was almost 9:45. I brushed through my hair and let it rest on my shoulders in its natural waves. I grabbed my bag, stuffed my phone in it and walked out.

I drove to the nearest Starbucks to grab some coffee because I hadn't really had any breakfast or time to make some tea. I decided I would snack at the studio.

I tried to keep my eyes focused on the road but they would constantly wander to my bag that held my phone.

Maybe he'd called. Maybe he'd texted. Maybe he left me a voice mail. Anything, a small fragment on communication would be enough. It would put me at peace as I tried to resist the urge to check my phone whilst driving and considering it was stuffed in my bag, I would definitely risk a car crash and I wasn't a pro at multi tasking. I pushed that urge aside until I parked into the parking lot of the studio.

I almost ripped my bag apart, searching for my phone that I had been too busy to check this morning. Me being busy had also made me forget about Zayn and my terms. Once I found it, I scanned through everything but found nothing from him. Not even a simple goodnight or good morning, no missed calls. Nothing.

I shrugged the useless feeling that erupted inside me and walked out of my car and to get to work right away. I worked hard that day, trying to get as much work done as possible. I tried to keep myself occupied and not think about Zayn and be happy so I wouldn't attract any unwanted attention to my mood.

Lunch break rolled in without me quiet noticing. I sighed, trying to think of what to do. The girls never asked me to come with them to get lunch since I always spent lunch breaks with Zayn. It was out of question for me to have lunch with them. Today though I wasn't looking forward to it.

I didn't want to act like a wimp. I wanted to call him, dear god, did I but it wasn't my fault that we were in this awkward position. He was the one that stormed off on me, never called me, never asked me what was wrong. I was not going to give in. He needed to understand his mistake.

I decided to skip on lunch and eat something later on. Instead I walked to the mini fridge that we had and grabbed a juice box to drink. Jesy, Jade and Leigh all left for lunch. Leigh went with some friends and Jesy and Jade went together with a guy from our studio named Andrew. I regretted not going with them but I mingled on my phone while I drank up the juice. I was bored out of my mind and just wanted lunch break to end and for me to have some company.

Instead it didn't end there. Once I had put my phone down after a couple of minutes of texting and surfing the internet. It lit up, indicating I got a message. I casually went to my message icon only to be met with a message from Zayn.

Come outside. I'm next to your car.

I felt an overwhelming feeling engulf me once again. I didn't want to talk to him right. I didn't feel like confronting him. What bothered me even more was how formal he was being. Otherwise, he would casually stroll into the studio at lunch break and joke around with the girls. I sighed tossing my phone to the side and walking out. I exited the building, looking around the parking lot. Cursing myself for parking the car so far away, I made my way towards it.