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Mentions of suicide throughout the whole chapter !

Mentions of suicide throughout the whole chapter !

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Your fault

Nothing felt real as Felix spilled word after word, explaining every little detail as to why Minho was at fault and I was started to feel sick at the explaination.

"He didn't need to attack me just because I made a joke about suicide.... Yet he lashed out at me!" He confusingly explained, it seemed Felix himself didn't understand the reason he got hurt either.

As for me, none of this was sinking in, I expected something bigger however, it felt like he simply picked a fight because he wanted to and he just so happened to find a excuse welcoming him.

"He said I had no right to say anything about suicide and that if I say another word, he'll kill me so I just-" Felix remained silent, debating on the best way to pass me the information and I could only imagine Felix carelessness saying utter dumbness.

"So what did you do next?" I wondered to him and he swallowed before saying "I said suicide is stupid and for the weak so he should join them if he feels so strong about it..."

The slight shock that entered me felt absolutely disgusting and the drink preying between my hands laced inside my throat, the taste pushing itself up to leak out but I ignored the shock and placed a hand on Felix's shoulder, patting him gently.

"And that's when he attacked you..." I ended and he only nodded as more tears gathered the courage to fall.

"Hyunjin I didn't do anything that bad to deserve to get hurt this badly! It was just a dumb topic and I voiced my opinion on it" he defended himself, I knew he could feel my disappointment and he tried to lighten the hatred I was gathering for him.

"It's just damn suicide! Everyone dies in the end so what's wrong with me saying a few words" I stayed silent.

"Not like it'll affect anyone! Or those that died from it! Right hyunjin? Please say something, please don't look at me like that" he pleaded and my gaze softened.

"You're right... Minho was being unfair" I agreed, giving him a small smile which he returned.

"It's not your fault. It's Minho's" I mumbled.



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I laid still on the coach, mind occupied with the situation and I hated myself for picking a side but I couldn't help but stand by Felix.

Couldn't help but take into consideration his situation, his wounds, his worries and the hurt he faced because of Minho and Chan.

So of course it made sense Felix was innocent in this all, he didn't even beat Minho up as badly, Minho came hurt-free but Felix didny, he got his heart broken more than before.

I was disappointed in the older, why couldn't he keep his word and befriend Felix like he was meant to, apologie to him and make up and just forgot about Chan and move on from this simple yet compilaticated situation simply because neither side is willing to take the blow for it.

My thoughts were interrupted by the ringing of the phone and I instantly picked it up, not checking to see who's on the other end.

"Hello" I simply started and the other side was just silent so I pulled the phone away from my ear and checked to see.

My heart beat increased as the name registrated.

"Hyunjin" Minho spoke, his tone so weak and painful.

"Can we meet up and talk please" he begged and I couldn't bring myself to say anything back.

"I promise I'll leave you and Felix alone after this" he mumbled and I could hardly pick up the words but I did and I couldn't understand why they hurt more than they should have.

"Ok"


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