Fields of Gold (MYG)✔️

Part 74

The next morning, you both got texts from Namjoon. He had called an emergency BTS meeting and to be ready to be on a video call in about an hour.

You groaned and started moving the blankets to get out of bed and start getting ready when arms wrapped around your waist from behind and kept you in bed.

You didn't have the heart to push him off and really in your current mental state of resigned numbness, you craved the warmth of his arms and the feeling of his breath on your neck. You rolled over and he tucked you up against him and you laid in silence for a few minutes, just listening to the wind hit the building, the low murmur of the fireplace and the deep even breathing of the man beside you.

Sighing heavily, Yoongi loosened his grip on you a bit and leaned back. He smiled sadly and you really struggled to not start bawling then and there. If you started now, you weren't going to be able to stop for a month and a half.

It had made sense when you planned it, because you thought you'd need time to lean the penthouse for when the lease was up and then the entire schedule had been built around this month-long gap between the time Yoongi got on the plane to head back to Korea, and then next time he stepped off the plane from the EU leg of the press tour.

Currently however, your opinion of your own self worth was below sea level. How were you supposed to live without him next to you for the next six weeks? And honestly, it was only going to be six weeks if absolutely everything went perfectly and on schedule, and you loved Joon and trusted him a lot, but he was going to have to wear a lot of hats to get all of BTS through the press tour on time and on schedule.

You were annoyed it was going to take you so long to clear up things here, but you and Yoongi had talked through everything you had listed that you wanted to do before you went to Korea and had trimmed where you could, but you still wouldn't be in Korea before Yoongi and the guys had to leave.

And you also knew deep in your heart of hearts that you would want and need the time to learn to stand in Seoul on your own without Yoongi. You craved him like he was your oxygen, but if you didn't do this part for yourself, there would always be a part of you that doubted you could stand without Min Yoongi at your side.

You tightened your grip on his shoulders and Yoongi caught your face in his hands and leaned down to kiss you.

This time you let all your fears worries and even a bit of desperation into your kiss and he responded by simply slowing down and giving you that deep drugging kiss you loved so much.

Drawing back, he smiled for you and tucked your hair behind your ears again. His eyes flicked over your face, and you had a moment to wonder if he was building his own internal photo album to take home the way you tried to burn memories into your own head.

"I love you (Y/N). We will make it through this messy bit, and you will find ways for us to be together longer," he said and you smiled, but he continued.

"I will work with the guys to figure out more ways we can balance our schedule. Sejin was right, we aren't twenty anymore. Joon and Jin want more time home with their kids, Tae and Jiminie always want more time together, and Hobi and Jungkook deserve time to figure out their solo schedules not to mention their own lives," he said, and your smile got even bigger.