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***Nomzamo's pov***

Mom walks in carrying a baby in pink , Ndabe rushes to her and takes the baby but she cries, shortly after Khanyisa walks in with bags with dad behind her.

Dad : "Go place those bags in your room and come back here!"   He sounds angry. Khanyisa does as told then come back and sit next to me , her eyes not leaving the ground.

Dad : "Explain yourself!" 

Khanyisa : "I'm really sorry. "

Dad : "We don't want to hear your stupid sorries , explain yourself!" 

Khanyisa : "I only found out when I was 7 months ukuthi ngimithi. I met uMaNtuli at the hospital when I was giving birth , she's a nurse so she helped me with looking after Mihlali. I know I should've came to you mom atleast but honestly I didn't think , I only acted and when I look at my decisions I realise that what I did was stupid especially trusting a stranger with my baby."

Dad : "vele you were stupid."

Khanyisa : "So every time when I didn't come home I was with my baby and I was using my allowance to look after Mihlali but sometimes MaNtuli would sometimes take care of everything that was needed for Mihlali."

Dad : "You know what makes me furious Ntandwenhle?"

Khanyi : "no."    She whispers.

Dad : "It's the fact that your stupid actions made this child suffer , you also made my wife doubt her role! Do you know that your mother hasn't been coping? You also had the nerve to go MIA after dropping that bomb on us!"

Khanyi : "I'm sorry."  She whispers wiping her gushing tears. I hug her as she wails loudly , mom is also crying silently holding on Mihlali tight. After sometime everyone calms down. I make some tea and serve everyone with two plates of muffins. Khanya comes down with Landokuhle. Mom finally puts Mihlali down and she crawls to her mother.

Mom : "She doesn't walk vele or uyavilapha?"

Khanyi : "She can't walk nor say any words. She just recently started crawling. When she was born the doctors said she might grow with autism so every after three months she has to go for her shots."

Dad : "what hospital is that?"  He asks taking Mihlali

Khanya : "Mediclinic close to Midrands."

Dad : "Yabona the things y'all do Khanyisa! She doesn't have symptoms of autism. It's pretty normal for a baby to start walking at only two years or even three years. I'll check her when I come back from the U.S. and don't take her for her shots this time."   

Khanyi : "okay."

We all sitting while laughing and conversing and the two babygirls are playing together. My phone rings and it's my fiance , I excuse myself to answer

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Me : "Baby."

Sphe : "Sthandwa sami I miss you."

Me : "there's still a family crisis so we still have to be here but you can come around to see me."

Sphe : "I'll be there before you sleep so you better keep your phone next to you."

Me : "okay love." 

Sphe : "I miss being inside you"  I giggle.

Me : "You nasty baby." He laughs.

Sphe : "I'll be there in a few hours. I love you."

Me : "I love you too."

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Mom: "I love him for you baby. I really love seeing you guys happy cause it makes me happy."   I smile and walk to her and hug her.

Me : "Thank you sthandwa sababa wami."    She blushes.

Mom : "mxm"

Me : "How are you feeling? With all that's going on ?"   She sighs deeply

Mom : "I'll be okay baby."

Me : "mah?"

Mom : "I don't know how to feel Nomzamo that's the thing. Angazi ngithini noma ngizizwe kanjani. I'm hurt. Disappointed. Doubtful. Angazi nje kuningi."

Me : "why doubtful pho mama?"

Mom : "I'm not sure if...."

Me : "Please don't tell me about doubting your motherly duties just because of Khanyisa's carelessness. If you were such a bad mother then sonke ngabe siyahlupha or whatever."

Mom : "Nomzamo , I've been this mother that I am to you guys so that whenever y'all are in difficult situations the first person to come in y'alls little minds would be me kodwa Cha Nomzamo! I feel like I failed my job. First of all , I couldn't see that something was wrong with uNdabe , 2) I never noticed Muzi's behavior towards Ndabe and trust me already that says alot , 3) Khanyisa finds out she's pregnant and she doesn't tell or you even she decided to trust a stranger. Now tell me Nomzamo ukuthi what does that mean for me as a mother to have your kids trusting strangers than you with their problems? If I was really the mother you guys desire than y'all would find comfort and peace kumina not strangers. I don't know what I did wrong kodwa mina I did what I thought was right, I thought I was doing this mother thing right. I feel like a failure Zamo! My heart is in pieces , I can't even look at Ndabezinhle in the eyes because I'm ashamed of never noticing anything wrong. I feel like I don't have the privilege to be angry at Khanyisa because she did what she thought was best and if what she thought was best is without me than I don't want to be angry cause I want you guys happy all the time but I guess I'm really not doing something right , phela whatever you guys do , reflects your parents especially me since imfundiso eziningi ziphuma kimi. I'm sorry though for ever failing you guys."

She wipes her tears then stands up

Khanyisa : "mama you not a bad mother , I was just stupid. I love you mom. Trust me when I say I wouldn't have it any other way than to have a mother like you. You are one in a million. Our doings are definitely our faults cause you guys teach us values growing up so it's really on us how we use and install the values taught to us in our lives. I'm sorry my stupidity made you doubt yourself but you are without a doubt a great mother."

Mom : "it's okay."

Mom walks out.