The Long Lost Mikaelson

Chapter 56: First Step

Blaise tightened his grip on my hand as I took deep breaths.

Draco sat on my left and Blaise at my right, and in front of us was Professor Snape.

It's currently 7:30 am and we're sitting in Professor Snape's office on a Saturday morning.

"Bellissima, you can do this." Blaise whispered.

I nodded and took in another breath. As I released it, I made eye contact with Snape.

"Miss Mikaelson, is everything alright?" He asked slowly.

I was about to nod and say yes but I stopped myself.

I shook my head, "No professor. It's time I tell you the truth."

His face quickly turned pale and he showed worry.

"Professor, what exactly did my father say about what happened over holiday?" I asked suddenly.

He raised a brow before answering, "He said that some family issues had come up which affected you greatly. He also mentioned a drastic change in your mood. He mostly told me to keep an eye on you."

I hummed, "Well I guess he was right on the 'keeping an eye out for me' part."

He furrowed his brows, "What is this about?"

I took in a deep breath and then shut my eyes, "I found out something that took a big toll on me. A huge toll on me. I did some horrible things-"

He shook his head, "I'm sure whatever it was, you can fix."

I sighed, chuckling softly. "I don't think so. The night I found out, I began spiraling. I compelled a random frat boy on New Year's day and drank from him until he passed out. Then I kissed another rando after I got almost black out drunk."

I inhaled deeply while looking at their faces. Professor Snape looked horrified. Blaise was in shock and Draco looked to be in disbelief.

"After that night, I spent almost a whole week without eating or drinking anything. I didn't leave my bed, let alone my room. I felt like my body was just done." I tightened my grip on Blaise's hand. By now Draco had picked up my other hand.

"You're a supernatural creature, you had a supernatural reaction. I'm honestly surprised you didn't have a more drastic reaction given you're a teenage vampire with heightened emotions." He began explaining.

I sighed, "There's more. The day before I left, we went ice skating. I... I fell into the lake and there was a moment when the cold was hitting my skin where I just thought about letting myself sink. So I did. I didn't kick or swim, I just sank, as the water filled my lungs."

Snape gulped before letting out a shaky breath. "And these... thoughts, have they resurfaced again?"

My eyes filled with tears as I nodded, "I've tried to brush them aside but they're constantly on my mind." My voice broke, "I don't want to feel this way anymore..."

Blaise quickly pulled me into his arms. He had already started crying. Draco's eyes were watery as well but his face remained stern. His hand softly rubbed my back.

"I'm sorry, B, I'm so sorry." I mumbled.

His hand brushed the hair from my face, "Don't apologize bellissima, please don't."

I pulled away from him, looking him in the eyes, "I told you both on Christmas Day that you two saved me, and I meant it. I just-... I don't think you can do it again."

Draco's hand cupped my face so that I would look over at him. "Don't ever say that!"

I shut my eyes as I began to cry again. I leaned into Draco's arms and silently sobbed.