『m』『e』『?』『?』Part #2

Trying not to care

I try so hard sometimes to act like I don't give a sh#t when I do. I don't know how other people can just go to sleep and not think about anything they did. Something bad is going on I can just sense it but I won't say anything cause if I do I'll just look insane. Even though I feel this negative energy and boy does it make me feel just awful. So I'm here yes, to talk to no one. I know it sounds like I'm having a mental break down but I'm not I mean maybe from your perspective dear reader but you really don't have to read this. I just feel bad and I don't know why. I try to look on the bright side always but I don't know what is wrong with me today. I'm just here like I said cause I got no one right now I mean I do but I don't wanna burden any of them and they wouldn't understand cause I don't either really. Also I don't wanna come off as clingy. I have trust issues too so there's that. It's really hard dealing with things sometimes. If you think I'm being dramatic you can go cause I don't expect you to understand when I, myself don't either. Feelings I just really don't understand them. As for me I don't understand me either. So yeah I'll probably write more in a bit cause I just feel like it you really don't have to read this.

Anyway I'll just vent some more soon.

Post soon when I think of something funny this is more serious and I'm sorry cause I currently feel like shit which most of my enemies would probably enjoy like the sadists they are, but as you can tell I don't give a shit so that is why I'm okay with saying yes I feel like shit. What? You gonna say I'm crazy? I mean maybe probably but I don't care I feel a bit better talking here even if no one is here but that's fine. Gives me some space to clear my thoughts I guess. Also my poetry has been really sad lately maybe because I feel like shit idk but whatever hopefully this passes.

See you person who read this hopefully not but if you did just forget all this okay... I'm just getting things off my chest cause I can't really tell this to people I know. So yeah... bye for now.