[✓]My Fiancé is in Love with My Little Sister

Chapter 8

The Second Life – 4

Even I know what is the fear of losing the person you love. Because more than anyone else, more than anything else, from the bottom of my heart I was afraid of losing Soleil. That was why I had made all the efforts I could to not be hated by him.

 “I, was I, wrong somewhere?”

The words that had involuntarily slipped out of my mouth unexpectedly reverberated in the room that had fallen deadly silent.

“My lady?”

The man who had been my escort knight since my childhood raised his voice from the corner of the room. The only person who was not using “madam”, but was continuing to call me like when I had been unmarried, was him. I don’t know why, but no matter how many times he was rebuked for it he never ceased to call me like this. It may be because he had been together with me since I was a child and he couldn’t see me as an adult woman, but my heart was stuck with the impression he didn’t approve of me being Soleil’s wife. If it had been another time, I would have been able to fend him off with a smile, but right now it was impossible. Because if I let my guard down now I would start to cry, I tightly closed my eyes to endure it.

Since the news announcing that Silvia was seriously ill had arrived, a week had passed. I heard that Silvia had somewhat managed to hang onto her life. However, it seemed she wasn’t in a stable situation yet, even now she must remain under constant observation. I heard there would always be someone staying beside her.

Soleil remained at Silvia’s side and didn’t come back to the estate.

As for me, due to intense morning sickness, I was in a state where I couldn’t raise my head. Since that time when I collapsed in the entrance hall, I had been confined in bed. Because there was the risk I would lose the child if I overworked myself, the doctor had urged me to stay in bed for a while and to take a complete rest. I knew I had to immediately head for my parents’ house but it was a situation where even this much couldn’t be done with my own will alone. My health was bad to that extent. If I were to ride a carriage, my stomach would surely slowly be turned over.

Even so, if I had given priority to Silvia, if I had been an ordinary older sister, I think I probably would have gone to see my little sister. My ideals were telling me this was what it meant to be a family, to be a big sister. The ideals I imagined were declaring this.

But, however.

The more days passed by, the more I didn’t know what kind of expressions were good to make when I would meet her. All the more when I heard she was hanging onto her life. All the more when I heard her consciousness has returned. All the more when I thought Soleil was surely by her side. I have to go. Despite me thinking this, without knowing what attitude I should take, my legs refused to move. If it had been an unconscious Silvia, indeed it would have been possible to see her while displaying the visage of a kind big sister. I could have hold her powerless hand and prayed she would stay alive. I could probably have closed all my real thoughts inside my heart and acted the part of a praiseworthy big sister. However, in front of a Silvia who has regain consciousness, I can’t predict what kind of conduct I’ll take.

I will surely blame that child. Even if I seal my words, with my eyes, I will tell it to that child.

Why are you alive?

“Hey, can you come over for a bit?”

I called the escort who was standing near the door. He showed a slightly hesitant look, but before long, he approached until a distance not far from the bed. Originally, even if he was an escort, it’s not a praiseful thing for two persons to be alone in a bedroom. But at the present time where the head of the household is absent, most of the people were out, so there was no one to find fault with it.