× Day Dreams & Nightmares × R6 x Male!reader

Dinner Confessions (Kapkan)

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"Look, if you're not going to support it then leave, okay? You don't have to go. But if you're going to talk about her like that, then go."

Those words rang fresh in my ears. It was the last thing Maxim ever said to me directly. I had been so head over heels for him for such a long time, but I bit my tongue. He had met a girl he liked and of course I wasn't going to stop him. But it hurt. I buried myself in my studies and slowly distanced myself from him.

Then he asked me to be the man of honor at his wedding. It was the nail in the coffin. I remember doubting his choice, asking if he was ready to marry a woman like her. I hadn't meant in a bad way. She was just his polar opposite and all I wanted to do was make sure he was ready for that.

I went to the wedding, of course. I was going to support him no matter what. But we never talked. And eventually my work lead me away from him.

I missed Maxim. I did. But I knew my chance with him was over. At least, that's what I'd concluded.

When he walked into the infirmary on my first day, I was surprised by the lack of the ring. I didn't say anything, wondering if he even remembered me anymore. All was quiet as I carefully pulled stiches through a deep laceration on his forehead.

Being so close, I couldn't help the slight redness of my cheeks. As I pulled away after tying the stiches off, he grabbed my wrist, baby blue eyes scrutinizing it.

"You kept it," he said simply, fiddling with the old and worn bracelet. I laughed a little, having forgot about it despite it being a constant reminder of him. Maxim made it for me a while after we met. I hadn't taken it off since.

"Of course I did. I wasn't going to throw it away," I said, glancing at it fondly.

"I'm sorry, by the way. For what I said. I know it's been.. a long time, but I think the apology is overdue," Maxim suddenly murmured, dropping his hands from my wrist as he stared at them in his lap.

"It's okay, really. I get it. My wording hadn't been the best, I deserve it. But
.. there were other reasons I stopped hanging out with you, if that's why you're apologizing," I admitted, finally meeting his surprised gaze.

"What do you mean, other reason?" Maxim asked, confused replacing the surprise.

"Join me for dinner? I'll explain there. I don't really want to do it at work," I sighed, crossing my arms as I nervously awaited his answer, the same butterflies making a storm in my stomach as they had years before.

"Sure. The others are out, so we can just go to the dorm house, yeah? I can always help make it then," he proposed. My heart skipped a moment as I smiled, nodding.

"I'll see you later then, Maxim," I said, bidding him farewell as he headed out, waving back at me.

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I stared at the food in front of me, hoping that Y/n's favorites hadn't changed since we last ate together. I'll admit, seeing him again reminded me just how much I liked him. I remember the night we last spoke. I've regretted it every single day.

"Are you sure? You're not jumping into it too quickly? I don't want you to regret it because you got with someone like her," Y/n asked, concern written on his face. I ignored the pang in my heart as I spoke, watching his face fall.

"Look, if you're not going to support it, then leave, okay? You don't have to go. But if you're going to talk about her like that, then go," I had yelled. I saw the hurt in his face but realized it was too late. He just gave me the saddest eyes. He mumbled something before he left, ignoring the burning look I gave him.

He'd been worried about me and I yelled at him. I turned him away and was stubborn enough to keep him away.

The door opening and closing pulled me from my thoughts as I quickly got the small table set up. I glanced up just in time to see Y/n enter, smiling at me with a little wave.

"I'm not sure if you still like them, but I made some of those little snacks you liked," he said, holding out a little container. I laughed a little, surprised he'd remember such a small detail. It'd had been one of the many reasons I loved him.

"You can just set them on the counter, thank you. I'll bring them to my room later so the other boys don't get into them," I told him. He nodded and set them on the empty counter before helping me finish setting up.

"So.. do you wanna explain the other reasons, now?" I finally pushed after we had started eating. He paused, obviously thinking over what to say.

"Because it hurt, Max. After you got married, it hurt. I loved you and I didn't say anything and I had to watch you say I do to someone that wasn't me. You were doing great things with your life and career and I was stuck figuring out where I wanted to go in life. So I buried myself in my studies. And when that wasn't enough, I left," he said, staring down at the plate below him.

I didn't say anything for a moment. He had loved me? Even back then? Did he still love me?

"I'm sorry, Y/n. I was stupid and scared. You're an amazing person. You were going places, helping the world even as just a student. And I got scared that you would leave me behind, even if we were together. I tried to distract myself, told myself I didn't love you. I so badly wanted to move on from you. It was one of the reasons my marriage never worked out. I just never got over you," I told him, standing up and walking over to crouch beside him.

He stared at me, eyes wide with surprise.

"Does.. does that mean you still love me?" Y/n asked hesitantly. I could only nod in response as he shifted in the chair to wrap his arms around me.

"I have been dying to know this, Maxim. That's all I've ever wanted to know. Was that you loved me back," he whispered. I smiled softly, returning the hug with a gentle squeeze before pulling back and pressing a kiss to his head.

"Come, let's finish eating and then you can stay here, yeah? I think we have bit more catching up to do."

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not me rushing the end to get this out because ive been sick and working also i can drive now okay bye love you guys <33