One Direction Sad Preferences

Close To Nirvana

A/N SORRY I FORGOT TO PUT WHO WROTE THE LAST ONE!

harrystylesneed wrote this on my hoe.

OK LOVE YOU BABES! I'LL SEE YOU DOWN THERE SOMEWHERE!

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nir-ˈvä-nə

a place or state of oblivion to care, pain, or external reality

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All throughout my life, I thought I would never see the day I would be so happy to leave. Leave everything behind and set sail. Some would I say I have successfully achieved Nirvana.  -Harry Styles

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I met Liam through a friend, then I met his friends through him. I didn’t know what it was like to be in love until I met him. Our relationship was beautiful. What I didn’t know was how much it killed Harry. Everyday he would see Liam and I together, there was no escaping the fact that I drove him to silent insanity. 

I thought that I loved Liam until I found out the truth. I overheard him talking with Management, in our apartment. 

Our whole relationship was just a publicity stunt, that I didn’t know about it. Liam let me believe that he actually loved me, I let him play with my heart and he didn’t even return any of those emotions, we even lived together and to find out that everything he has done for me was a lie? It just broke me, I didn’t know what to do. I left the apartment, Liam didn’t know I was gone, he thought I was in the kitchen. I wandered aimlessly around a park, I sat on the swing, contemplating whether I should confront him or not. 

I turned around and headed back “home”, I wasn’t ready for the sight that I saw. I opened the door and I saw Liam with another girl. They weren’t doing anything, just watching a movie, cuddling. It hurt me to think that what Liam did with me was just for publicity, he didn’t actually care. And the fact that he did these things with someone else and meant it hurt the most. It hurt me so much I could literally feel my heart shattering to pieces. They didn’t seem to notice me, so I turned around and left. I saw Harry leaving his apartment too, I don’t know what made me run to him but I did anyways. I hugged him, feeling his warmth through my jacket. He looked surprised at first but returned the embrace. I looked up at him, and he understood.

After a short ride down the lift, Harry drove us to the park I was at before. Once we got out, we walked into the park. We sat down on the swings, and I couldn’t hold it in any longer. I started crying, weeping. My shoulders shaking, I felt Harry come over, wrapping his arm around my shoulders. 

When I finally stopped crying, I told Harry what happened. I thanked him for being there for him and gave him a kiss on the cheek. I felt his stare when I left the park. I walked back home and opened the door. Liam was sitting by himself this time, asleep on the couch. I looked at him and went to my room. I started packing my clothes and turned on my computer, I booked a ticket to Australia for as quickly as possible. I dragged my suitcase out, and left a note to each of the boys on my bed.

To: Harry

You know I’ve always loved you, and I hope you understand. I am really thankful for you bring there for me when I broke down. I just wanted you to know that I’m doing this for the best. You were the best friend I could ever ask for. Love always.

To: Louis

Hey, boobear. I know you’re the prankster, but I want you to know that I’m sorry if I’ve caused any of you pain by leaving but I want you to know that the past 2 years have been the most fun I’ve ever had. Goodbye.