CHAPTER 20 - FOR MY SAFETY AND PROTECTION
"You're finally awake."
And with just that voice, my concerns were finally answered. I opened my eyes and realized that I was still in a hospital bed, and my pregnancy was just a figment of my imagination.
Standing at the foot of my bed, the Don looked at me with a warm smile on his face.
He is alive.
And his presence was the definite sign it was all just a dream.
"Hello, grandfather." I greeted him with a smile.
I scanned the surroundings. I was still in the hospital. My room was like the one the Don had when he was hospitalized--a private suite. There was a ceiling-to-floor window overlooking the city that cast a gentle, golden light across the room, I could see the entire skyline from my bed. The view was breathtaking, making it easy to forget I was in the hospital.
I discreetly glance around the room, hoping to see a certain man. The Don might have noticed it and said, "He won't be here tonight."
I nodded and tried to hide my disappointment, but I couldn't help but feel a wave of sadness wash over me.
Waking up to that kind of dream, that felt like a nightmare, and seeing Theo next to me would have given me assurance that everything was going to be alright. That he somehow cares for me. That I wouldn't have to worry about my future. But instead, I was left with nothing but worry again.
Like that dream was a possibility.
Theo.
The last time I saw him was in the ER. It was moving to see how caring and concerned he was, looking after my well-being and wellness despite what had been happening to us lately. I was even touched when he remembered the blueberries, and how attentive he was to me. I didn't know he had this side of him for me.
But, whenever I think that the possibility of us finally arising, whenever I feel there's hope for our marriage, there is always something--room for doubt. Like it was really too good to be true.
Theo and Penelope.
What they had was something special. Maybe it was a deep connection and understanding of one another. Like whatever happens, their relationship won't change. Even though I pour out all of my feelings for him, it won't change.
Even if I get pregnant, it won't be enough to make him stay.
Funny how Theo can't even reciprocate my feelings in my own dreams. Even in that dream, I was still miserable. I guess that's a sign that I should stop this.
Right?
Because I think, when an opportunity opens, Theo would just leave me behind without a second thought. Why was I being so negative and pessimistic?
I guess because, in a way, that dream woke up something inside me?
Could it be that it was just merely a reflection of my insecurities? But what if these were coming from my subconscious mind, and the dream was telling me what I already knew deep down?
The facts that I was afraid to admit, to acknowledge.
That this marriage with Theo would fall apart in just a matter of time.
But there's always a but.
Why do I feel that Theo is genuinely protective and concerned about me, and cares a lot about me, too? Was I just being delusional? Was this because I was desperate for us to work?
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Lose You To Love Me (Mafia Romance)
RomanceAmelia Astoria, under an old pact with her grandfather and the Don of the Costra Nostra that runs New York City, agreed to marry Theodore Salvatore--the next mafia boss of the Salvatore clan, despite the high risk that comes with it, just to fulfill...