𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 ⇢ 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒐𝒔𝒃𝒐𝒓𝒏

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this is just a filler in chapter!!! it's a short one!!!

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harrys pov

first things first, that's would of happened if everything in the world was perfect, you know? no issues, nothing bad, nothing to fear, all perfect lines, perfect timelines, everything perfect, perfect, perfect, but unfortunately for us, it doesn't always work out that way.

why is it when people find someone they love they automatically think they're going to stay with them forever? that; that is the last person they will be with for the rest if their lives? that something won't happen, nothing will get in their way? death, sickness, betrayal, separation doesn't exist?

well that's the thing with love, you'd do anything for it. no matter if it's for giving or receiving. we all want to feel love and have a love. it's apart of how we live and move on with our lives. so why is she with someone else?, when i've done so much and given her so much so she can feel loved by someone.

and when i see her with him it isn't like jealousy or anything like that. it's like this feeling inside me telling me i wanna stop it from moving forward. sure, some of it could be jealousy but i don't think all of it is that.

"you okay?" mary jane says in her soft voice as she was standing beside me. my eyes never left her and him. luna and him. his arms wrapped around her waist, eyes on the way he says things into her ear and she laughed and gently pushed him away playfully. i didn't like the sight of it happening in front of me.

"just tired." i say with no emotion as i looked over to mary jane. this is bad for me to feel so different with my current girlfriend. it's not something i feel with luna. "i need coffee that's it." i add with a smile as she laughs back.

"well we could all go." she says back softly and by "we" i knew she meant all four of us. no way would i want to sit at a table and watch or hear her talk with him about stuff she's not doing with me. everything she's doing with him would be her first and i want her first to be with me, not him.

maybe i'll give it a couple of weeks until something happens and they'll break it off. no i won't say that then maybe i'll jinx it and they'll actually get married and have kids. i wouldn't be able to live my life knowing we won't be together.

"no i think i'll pass, i have somewhere to be anyways." i say lightly shaking my head a bit. "you know you can always talk to me right harry? it's okay that your grieving inside, your dad would of wanted you to be happy not hurt" mary jane replied back and i felt some type of frustration from her words. i didn't wanna talk about that topic, yeah she's my girlfriend now or whatever but the topic isn't one i wanna associate my relationship with, atleast not soon.

"i'm okay, and i know my dad would of wanted that but i'm doing my own things alright?" i say to her as i give her a glance to make sure she understands and doesn't bring up the topic again. then she nods with a small smile that i don't return before i give him a quick "bye" and leave.

i then could hear her laughter with him that made my stomach feel weird at the noise. i slowly glanced over at her. hm, maybe manifesting their breakup seems about right at this moment. it's not like anyone will know i was the one who is thinking and hoping it.

right? no one will know. also the only thing on my mind right now is really just finding out who the hell killed my father. thats the most important thing here in my mind— well that and yeah the pretty one thats been clouding my mind. definitely not describing luna. psh, she's like an average girl, nothing special. but i still saw her best moments more than that bastard of her "boyfriend" so i'm still better than him. so my father and luna are both 50/50 on my mind; just luna take about 5x more of it but thats okay, it's okay.

hm my guts telling me something will happen, i don't know what, or what it is but somethings coming, and i don't like it. maybe it's just my stomach feeling bad because i didn't get enough food? well somethings coming and my past self couldn't tell until it was over.

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i've written some new stuff but some of it is under some editing but i will post more when i get to it :)

also happy new years !!!<333