Selfish Love

Chapter 23

Judy

"I could ask you the same thing" I muttered turning around "what are you doing here Jordan"? I asked

"I followed you" his voice muttered just behind me before I felt his hands wrap around my waist "it's been a while I tasted you" he whispered against my neck, he starts kissing my neck moving my hair away to give him access

"Jordan stop" I whispered but he just starts touching my breasts, squeezing it from iniside my top

"Your nipples are fucking hard" he muttered sucking on my neck, I gasped and tilted my head back

"You can't be in here" I muttered and he just hummed not stopping with his hand on my boobs and his mouth leaving kisses on my neck

"Don't worry, nobody's gonna know, before they notice we're gone we'd be done" he muttered pinching my nipple, I bit my lip to keep the most inside

I shut my eyes tight and grabbed his hands before taking it off and stepping away from him

"What are you doing here Jordan"? I asked finding my voice and he just chuckled walking towards me

"What do you mean Judy"?

"You heard me Jordan, what do you want and don't tell me it's because you miss me because I'm not buying that" I tell him, he looks at me with a very shocked expression.
"What? Your boyfriend isn't letting you stick your dick in his butthole, so let me guess you have Judy to help you with that right"? I spit

"Not this again Judy"

"What? You don't wanna talk about it? Oh let me guess you're suddenly tired of letting him stick his dick into your vagina" I snap at him.

"You know, jealousy doesn't suit you, especially over Jack" he muttered pulling me close to him and stroking my cheek

"Stop it Jordan, that's not gonna work, you can't just ignore me for days, going about doing God knows what with Jack and then when you feel like it, you show up and start trying to get into my pants" I tell him pushing him off

He scoffs at me "what do you want me to do Judy? Apologise for being me"? He lost yell at me "well, I'm sorry you don't like Jack or the fact that I'm going out with him"

"You're not even gay and neither is he" I growl out

"You would never understand" he muttered turning around

"Then make me understand Jordan, this you or the other you, to me it's the same person, it doesn't matter if she chooses Jack, the way I see it, it's still you, you're the one with Jack so why don't you try and make me see things from your point of view" I try to calm myself

"That's why I said you'll never understand, just drop it Judy" he mutters and that just does it.

"You know what? I think you're just using your powers as an excuse to do whatever the fuck you want and nobody can say anything because then you'd play victim and act like society doesn't accept you, to me you're just a coward hiding behind the face of a woman all the time" I spit with anger.

"Maybe you're right, maybe not, you know what? I don't give a fuck what you think, last I checked you're not my girlfriend" he growled making me recoil back

"You're right, I'm not your girlfriend. This was a huge mistake" I whisper before walking out of the room, heartbroken, sad and fucking angry.

I walked past the room I found Adrianna and Kayla in and I could hear them giggling and laughing.

I rush downstairs back to the living room, Jack is nowhere to be seen, no Sam either, just Andre and Abby..... Kissing.

Just great
It's 'annoy Judy' day today
They don't even know I'm there, I just pick my phone up and walk out of the house.

I still can't get why Jordan is seeing Jack.
I mean they're not gay, or bi.
Even though it's not Jordan's male version that's going out with Jack, it still feels weird knowing we're having sex and he's seeing someone else.

It feels like cheating to me
And deep down, I feel like he's cheating on me with Jack, even though it sounds stupid

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"God it's so hot, where are the others? I'm really tired" Adrianna whined as we sat in our usual spot, just the two of us waiting for the others.

I just humm putting two nuts into my mouth and chewing it

"What's up with you? And don't tell me it's because you haven't smoked anything today" she says looking at me, I just shrug

"Nothing" I mutter looking around, it's really hot today actually

"Oh God, don't do that" she groaned and I looked at her

"Don't do what"?

"Don't brush it off like that, you've been like this for the past week" she says seriously
"Are you gonna tell me what's you with you and Andre? because I noticed you've been giving him the cold shoulder lately"

"Are you gonna tell me what's going on between you and Kayla"? I fire back and she opens her mouth and the closes it again
"Yeah I thought as much" I muttered cracking my last nut and throwing it inside my mouth

I sigh out before getting up
"I'm gonna go to the library, there's something I need to do" I tell her while taking my back and walking away.

She's right though
Ever since that night at Kayla's parents house, everything has just been so messed up for me.

I haven't spoken to Jordan, I didn't tell Andre I saw him kissing Abby, and I noticed she's been more clingy to him than usual

I've just been so angry at everyone and everything
Andre especially, and I don't know why I'm angry at him.

I haven't asked Adrianna about her and Kayla, personally I don't even wanna know.
It's her life, so she's free to live it the way she wants

"Judy" I hear my name, I turn and it's Andre, with Abby again.
They don't even have classes together, what's she doing with him?
"Where are you going to"? He asked and I just shrug

"Library, there's something I need to do there" I muttered and he just nods

"Will I see you later"? He asked

"I don't think so Andre, I gotta go" I rush out before turning around and walking away from him

I can't even look at him and I don't know why
Everything is just so messed up for me
I'm angry
And I don't know who I'm angry at
Maybe myself, or Jordan, or even Andre
Or that annoying Abby

I don't like Abby either 🤨🤨