Selfish Love

Chapter 26

Judy

Having sex with Jordan didn't feel this weird and awkward.
Having sex with Andre and waking up the morning after felt so fucking awkward.

I mean the sex was awesome but the after feeling of knowing I fucked my best friend, is not fun at all.

I wasn't exactly sober when we had sex but I wasn't that high that I didn't know it was Andre.
I knew it was him, I remembered everything.

Even asking him to kiss me
Damn what was I thinking?
How will I even face him
Way to go Judy

Sex with Jordan is way different than sex with Andre.
Andre is more gentle.
I didn't think I'd wake up and find him still on my bed.
I panicked and I asked him to leave

I haven't spoken to him since it happened.
What would I say?
That it was a mistake, it was fun?
I'm more confused than I've ever been in my teenage life.

"Are you okay"? Adrianna's voice broke into my thoughts, I turned to look at her before my eyes found the others, they were all busy talking and chatting, my eyes found Andre, he was already staring at me, I quickly looked away

"Yeah, I'm fine" I answered giving her a smile, she gave a look that showed she didn't believe me.

"Okay, if you say so" she mutttered before passing me a blunt, I took it and took a huge hit, handing it back to her.

My eyes involuntarily found Andre again and he was still looking at me, Abby was trying to get his attention, she was close to him but he wasn't even listening to whatever she was saying.

I looked away and my eyes landed on female Jordan, she was kissing Jack, I rolled my eyes and looked away.

I took the blunt from Adrianna and took another hit, I need to get high, if I wanna keep hanging out with my friends without losing my mind, I need to get fucking high that I won't notice them staring at me.

Even though I had my own to worry about, I couldn't help but notice the tension between Adrianna and Kayla.
They're not chatty as they usual would have been.

I guess I'm not the only one with life issues that has to deal with a boy, in their case a girl

I didn't even know Andre had gotten up and walked towards me, until I heard his voice from behind me

"Hey, can I uuh.... Can I talk to you for a second outside" he whispered and I looked at Adrianna, she was not even listening, just smoking, I turned and looked at him again.

"Uuh......I dunno Andre...." He cut me off

"Just a second Judy, please" he whispered and I looked at the others, Jordan was already looking at me

"Okay" I muttered before getting up and following behind him, he led me out to the hallway, before we both went down the stairs, he stopped just before we got to the last stairs and turned to face me.

"What's up with you"? He muttered facing me, I just sighed out, looking anywhere but him

"Nothing" I whispered

"I'm not doing this with you Judy" he muttered running his hands through his hair

"What"? I asked

"Are you just gonna ignore me and what happened the other night"? He asked and i tensed, I looked at him briefly before looking away

"I don't wanna talk about it" I whispered folding my hands in front of me