ʀᴏᴏғᴛᴏᴘ ғɪɢʜᴛ - ɴᴄᴛ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ

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hands cold and clammy, knee bouncing up and down, nail being bitten down by his teeth and gaze nailed to the ground. anyone could tell jisung was nervous.

it came as a shock to him. why wouldn't it? the man he had never expected to see again was in a hospital room across from him while he waited on the uncomfortable hospital bench next to his sister.

he felt a hand squeeze his shoulder, and the familiar voice of his sister saying, "he'll be fine."

but park hyesu didn't realise that wasn't what had jisung worried. it was seeing his father again.

'he can die for all i care' he found himself thinking at some point.

the man had gotten a sharp blow to the head, resulting in a traumatic brain injury according to a nurse. he was at great risk of losing his life. jisung didn't flinch at the thought.

he wasn't sure what to feel about the guy who ruined the memories that were supposed to be precious and cherished. one thing was for sure, though. jisung hated his father and he would let him know of that today.

today. his birthday.
what a perfect day for reliving all your previous trauma when life only started to get better.
he wasn't even sure if it was still hia birthday anymore, having sat at the benches for hours.

he was lost in his thoughts but brought back by the vibration of his phone in his pocket. deciding to take a break from his brain, he opened the text from seorin.

rin🎀💕

jisung?
are you there?

yeah im here

thank god
I was getting worried

how are you feeling?

im sorry for not texting earlier
im feeling

idk

do you wanna talk
about it?

tbh i dont even wanna
see him but at the same time
i wanna go yell at him for
ruining my childhood
i wanna tell him i hate him but
at the same time i just
wanna keep him away from me

whatever you feel
like is best for you, go
for it
you're clearly hesitant
about seeing him again rn
you're contemplating it
and thats completely
understandable
give it some time
maybe you'll sort out your
emotions and come
to a conclusion abt seeing
him or not?

the doctors said he might
wake up in a week or two after
surgery if he doesn't die
they'll let us see him
after surgery today too but he'll be asleep
ykw seorin
i wanna see him
maybe its just hope that
he's changed
what's holding me back is the fear
that he hasn't.
the person I've become now is
the person he didn't want me to
become
he'd be so disappointed

listen my love
the person that you are
right now is the person
that so many people,
including me and especially
me, love and cherish.
your achievements aren't
what you'll be remembered for
jisung
you're an amazing person
if he's disappointed in you
for being a good person
then that's on him
you're the most brave
and kind person I've ever met

idk what to say to that
I'd kiss you if you were here
wait til i get home

I'll wait for you then <3