Ive seen you before

winter

𝒀𝒏𝒔 𝒑𝒐𝒗

Ever since the night i left beth and vivs house, and katie finding me. I haven't had much contanct with either of them.The few occasional texts between me and leah. But nkw I'm coming back over to England for my sister abbies  wedding. So I might visit them. Mabye katie too, to thank her for coming to find me.

If I was still with Katie I would've asked her to be my guest.

Or if I was still texting leah like I was before I would've asked her.

But since I'm not, I'm matching with my other siblings.

My younger sister Sophie is wearing a blue dress, my younger brother Matthew (matty) is wearing a black suit with a white shirt and a navy tie. And I'm wearing a black suit with a navy waistcoat, white shirt and navy tie.

When we were all younger we said we'd match in blue to someone's wedding. So here we are, keeping our promise to eachother.

I was also offered to play a few songs at their wedding so I'll be plying a few songs there. Hopefully they'll go well.

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The day of the wedding went really well. Cried my eyes out. Posted a few pictures on Instagram of all of us together. I noticed a certain someone liked them. Katie? Weird.

But now its time for songs. Oh fuck. I'm sitting myself for this.

Sophie ushered me up onto the microphone and stool with ny guitar, before I could back down.

As I sat down on the stool, put my guitar strap around my shoulder and adjusted the microphone, I cleared my throat before I spoke.

"Erm...I just er..want to say some er..words...that er I'm really proud of your abbie, if I'm being honest I didn't think anyone would like you" I joke " well look your my older sister, the most annoying and bossy sister but I wouldn't change the world for you" I say before starting to strum at my guitar
" these are for you ab" I say

I cleared my throat

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After a few songs I had to dedicate one to a family friend of our, freddy who we lost a few years back due to suicide.

"Er..I just want to dedicate these two songs for freddy, a family friend of ours who we lost a few years back and I just thought he should be mentioned at such an important day for us today" I say before singing

Not knowing matty was recording me. I began to sing

"They say the devil takes the best of us, I guess I always knew that you weren't like the rest of us
You held a party in your hand like it would slip away like moments passed
How I miss the way you used to laugh
Is that the way it goes, you trade your soul to be a rose
Give everything you've got to give before you've got to go
I guess that no one knows
I guess that I just didn't see the lows

Oh, we all fall down
Oh, we all fall down

I wish you told me how you felt that night
Now I'll never get to change your mind
But with all off the memories
You'll always be part of me
I'll tell your mother how we used to laugh
But thats never gonna bring you back
Now your only a memory
But you'll always be part of me
Part of me

I remember times when we'd stay up 'til morning light
I remember how you'd say how much you miss those nights
And I wish that I'd have noticed all those cracks in your smile
'Cause it took a while
We could have put stars together, planted roots and lived forever
We could have been kings of our own kingdom, had you let me help you
But you're conditioned to believe it only makes you weaker
'Til it chokes you and you're barely breathing
Oh, we all fall down
Oh, we all fall down
I wish you told me how you felt that night
Now I'll never get to change your mind
But with all of the memories
You'll always be part of me
I'll tell your mother how we used to laugh
But it's never gonna bring you back
Now you're only a memory
But you'll always be part of me
Part of me, oh-oh
I wish you told me how you felt that night
Now I'll never get to change your mind
But with all of the memories
You'll always be part of me
I'll tell your mother how we used to laugh
But it's never gonna bring you back
Now you're only a memory
But you'll always be part of me
Part of me"