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Leah grabs my hand and drags me inside the building. She drags me all through the building, as if I don't know it myself. She drags me into relax room where everyone is sat down. As soon as the door is swung open by leah, all heads turn in our direction.

"Y/N!!!!" Lia walti shouts from across the room before jumping into my arms.
Followed by Beth and viv and stupidly leah.

I sit down on a free spot on the couch, unfortunately next to katie. But also fortunately. Lia walti infront of me on a beanbag. Before she asks

"Since when did you sing, yn?" Loud enough so most of the people could hear

"Ya yn when did you start?" Beth pipes in and viv agreeing

"Erm..I sang while I was here, but I never did infront of anyone or videoed myself. But I got the opportunity to do it today at the wedding...so ya..." I say

"Can you sing us a song now?" Leah asks

"I don't er... have my guitar" I say

"I can lend you mine" jen says

"Er... you sure?"

"Ya go on yn" jen cheers

"Which one do ye want to hear?" I ask

"Give us options" katie finally speaks

"Er... alot more free, true love waits and up" I say

People whisper between eachother before a few answers were shouted. Before I said I'd do all three of them for them.

I began strumming at the guitar, then cleared my throat before singing.

" this is alot more free" I say

"Leaves start falling when the cold wind blows
And soon get covered by the winter snow
The birds start singing when the spring rolls round
Flowers blooming through the thawing ground
When you love somebody and the love grows cold
The sun starts shining when you let it all go
There's a certain kinda hurting only time can heal
That's a pretty good picture of the way I feel
I'm a little bit hurt
But a lot more free
I ain't sayin that you never took a toll on me
For what it's worth
I can finally see
That I'm a little bit hurt but a lot more free
Yeah I'm a little bit hurt but a lot more free
From this mountain I can see so far
Rivers running like deep deep scars
Carrying the lifeblood through my veins
Is it crazy that I'm grateful for all the pain
I'm a little bit hurt
But a lot more free
I ain't sayin that you never took a toll on me
For what it's worth
I can finally see
That I'm a little bit hurt but a lot more free
Yeah I'm a little bit hurt but a lot more free"

People clap and cheer as I finish the first song

"This is true love waits"

"Look away, I don't wanna be seen
Stop my heart from running away from me
Pick you up if that's even allowed
Stop that, play it down
Squeeze my hand but they don't see
I'm not sure if it's even safe for me
Hold it back, as much as I can
Fuck that, take a chance
If it's true love, it will wait for us
And I'll try so hard to prove
If that's something that you want me to do
And if I'm holding back or I don't react
Is it just too good to be true?
How could things be so much better with you?
If it's just too good to be true
How come things are so much better with you?
Don't wanna rush, we just got free
I can't pretend, yeah, something's changed in me
As we slow dance in the street
We don't need no sleep
Whispering what we need to hear
Both scared that it might just disappear
Or maybe we might not even last
No way, not a chance
If it's true love, it will wait for us
And I've got so much to prove
If that's something that you want me to do
And if you're holding back or you don't react
Is it just too good to be true?
How could things be so much better with you? Yeah (ah)
If we've got so much to lose?
How come things are so much better with you?
True love
How come things are so much better with you?
True love
How come things are so much better with you? Yeah
Aw, maybe it's really this easy
You seem fine and maybe you're right
Aw, I suppose I'll just look past this feeling
It gives us a reason to be anything that we like
Ah, ah
How come things are so much better with you? Yeah
Ah, ah
All the things are so much better with you"

After I finished the song I glanced at katie who's already looking at me with her head tilted

"And this is er..up" I say

"It's two o'clock on the edge of the morning
She's running magical circles around my head
I hitch a ride on a dream she's driving
She turns to kiss me, I crash back into bed
Across the street on a grayed-out Monday
I see the girl with the eyes I can't describe
And suddenly it's a perfect Sunday
And everything is more real than life
I think I'm back in the dream
I think I'm back on the ceiling
It's such a beautiful feeling
Going up
She lights me up
She breaks me up
She lifts me up
You find a mystery bound in perfection
You've got to read, but you don't wanna reach the end
'Cause what if everything beautiful's fiction
And this reality's just pretend?
And then I'm back in the dream
I'm looking up at the ceiling
It's such a beautiful feeling
Going up
She lights me up
She breaks me up
She lifts me up
Up to the stars, she shows me
Dame Street, George's Street, miles below me
Up where the world won't let us down
(Na, na, na, na)
Going up (It's two o'clock on the edge of the morning)
She lights me up (She's running magical circles around my head)
She breaks me up (I hitch a ride on a dream she's driving)
She lifts me up"

As soon as I stop, a load of cheering and claping coming from all corners of the room. A small smile playing on my lips.

I got to the couch and sit back down on it. Everyone is back focused on the documentary, but as I turn my gaze to the screen someone whispers in my ear.

"Meet me in the boot room"

Katie.... she sends shivers down my spine when she just whispered into my ear. But my heart is racing after she said to meet her in the boot room.

Katie gets up and says she going to the bathroom.

Around 5 minutes later I get up a d go to the "bathroom"

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I make my way down the hallway, towards the boot room.

I open the door, and peek my head in, to see Katie sitting down on the bench, her leg bouncing up and down, and biting her nail on the thumb.

"So...why did you call me here?" I ask whike closing the door shut behind me

"Er...I don't know....well actually I er...do k-know" she pauses

I feel relieved as I know she is as nervous as me right now.

"W-were those songs about....me?" She adds

"Erm...ya the first, 2 were, about our relationship, well friendship now, after our relationship and I suppose the last one is kinda er...back when I first met you...I er..guess" I say

"Why? Why out of all songs you probably have you decide to sing them?" She questions

"Because katie, they're ny best ones I have, and they show how I feel now, and about you, there my best songs because they are about you" I admit

Katie just stares blankly at me

"You know im with caitlin right?" She asks confused

"Ya I knew back last year on new years night"

"How?" She asks

"I saw the photo you posted" I say

"Oh.." is all katie says

"Ya" I whisper

"If you knew then why did you write them songs about me?" She says

"Because, I might have said it back then but it was to early, but now that your gone, I know I meant it when I said it katie, because I'm still in love with you, and when I saw that picture, I just....wanted to die...hit me like a dagger to the heart, it broke me katie..." I admit before pausing

"𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖽𝗈𝗇𝗍 𝗄𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝗁𝗈𝗐 𝗅𝗈𝗇𝗀 𝗂 𝖼𝗈𝗎𝗅𝖽 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗂𝗇𝗍𝗈 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝗉𝗂𝖼𝗍𝗎𝗋𝖾...𝗂 𝗐𝗂𝗌𝗁 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗂𝗍 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝗆𝖾.." I add

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Song 1: "alot more free" by Max McNown

Song 2: "true love waits" by the coronas

Song 3: "up" by sing street

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