▬promise of particles▬lloyd x FEM!reader▬

Calming Waters :151:

Pressing your face further into the pillow, you attempted to block out the sun and distant voices. You inhaled the comforting smell of your bed, the lingering scent of Lloyd melting from his side to your's.

Pulling the blanket up to your chin, you waited a moment, before letting out a breath. You couldn't fall back asleep. And the headache didn't help either.

"—I just don't.. Everything she said felt like it was targeted towards my insecurities, to my fears. Stuff she'd never blame me for.."

You rolled to your other side, craning your head to hear who was speaking. It was about you after all.

The door was opened halfway and you could make out both, the shine of Titanium from Zane, and Lloyd.

"I haven't been able to fully analyze these crystals, but you claimed it was in the shape of a wolf? Perhaps that is a clue towards who created it." The robotic voice of Zane sounded.

Lloyd has his head hung in his hands, sat in a chair outside the room. "I just- fuck.. I don't know. The flashes of- well I don't exactly know what it is.. but I've been getting flashes when I sleep, messing with my head." He looked up at Zane. "Y/n had a theory she transferred her visions to me. Is this that? Is this how she felt for so many years..?" His voice cracked slightly.

Your chest pulled back at his words. Of course it was your fault. You hurt him. You.. hurt him. Rubbing your face, you let the memories of what happened spill into your head.

You attacked him.
It felt effortless, like you could do anything. The ringing in your head told you to hurt him.

Your vision blurred. Your hands shook.

You attacked him.
You hit him when he was just trying to protect you. The necklace controlled your movements. You didn't want to.

Your breathing quickened. Your ears rang.

You attacked him.
You used his secrets against him. Things he was scared of. The necklace told you to. It did. You would never say that and mean it.

Your eyes watered. Your nails dug into your arms.

You attacked him.
You attacked him.
You attacked him.
You
hurt
him.

"Y/N!" Lloyd shouted, shaking your shoulders.

Scrambling away from him, you could see your chest rapidly rise and fall. You had felt like a confident predator before, but now, you felt like a rabbit with it's bloody claws bared.

Holding his hands out, he made calming motions, sitting down, not moving too suddenly. "Hey, it's okay. Take deep breaths, 'kay? Here, can I hold your hand?"

Your throat ran raw with each breath. "I-" Not trusting your own words, you shook your head. You were only going to hurt him.

Lloyd nodded, putting his hands on his lap. "That's perfectly fine. The necklace is locked in Zane's room, and it's shattered. It can't hurt you anymore." He explained, breathing in even breaths.

"I- I didn't mean it.." Your eyes flickered up to his neck. Two purple handprints were painted around his throat. "It- it told me to-"

He nodded looking down at his lap, rubbing his thumb into his palm. "I know. I know you didn't mean it. It was scary for both of us. But I'm okay. You're okay. Everyone is safe, and we're all okay."

Shutting your eyes, you shook your head. "I'm- I'm going to hurt you again-"

Lloyd slid a tiny bit closer. "Can I hold your hand now? I'd like to show you something."