Useless (phanfiction)

Chapter 4

//TRIGGER WARNING//MENTION OF SELF-HARM//

*PHILS POV*

I sit on the floor crying. Silence never seemed so loud before. My thoughts are screaming at me and I can't stop them. It was worse this time. There's no one to comfort me with Chris and PJ gone. I'm left alone with my thoughts. Just me.

How could you think like that Phil

You cant ask Chris and PJ to come to your rescue every time.

You're such a bad friend.

They're better off without you.

You're a fucking waste of space.

I hear a familiar voice. Dan.

"Phil!?"

"Phil please, just open the door!" He says banging on the door frantically.

I stay silent.

"Phil, however hard you try I'm not leaving."

I hear a sigh, I guess he gave up. After a few minutes I slowly open the door... I see Dan, his big, brown eyes meet my blue ones.

"Phil what happened?" he waits for a reply but I remain silent, staring at him.

"Fine. Don't talk. But don't think I'm leaving you here, Phil." He sits down next to me. I break down crying, I cant help it.

I'm so weak.

He puts comforting arm around me. I let him. I put my head on his shoulder, making him smile; not a happy smile but a sympathetic smile... I'm not sure why he's here or how he knew but I'm thankful. I look to him and he pulls me into a tight hug. That makes me cry more-There's something about Dan... I feel so comfortable around him, as if we're best friends. As if we're still best friends. We stay there for a while, neither one of us saying anything. Finally Dan breaks the silence.

"It's okay Phil."

I try to talk but no sound comes out. Dan gets up.

"I'll get you some water. Just... stay here , okay?"

I nod. I stand up and look in the mirror...

I'm a mess.

I wash my face as I hear Dan come back up the stairs.

"Here you go, Lion." he says, handing me a glass of water. Lion... he used to call me that when we were younger.

"I'm fine now Dan, please, don't worry about me. Just go home." I plead.

"Phil..."

"Dan really, I just want to be by myself right now."

He nods understandingly.

"Okay, but I'm right across the street  if anything happens. Don't forget that, Phil."

I smile as he grabs his bag and starts heading down the stairs. He turns back.

"Don't do anything stupid, okay Phil? For me."

After Dan leaves, I dry my eyes and try to clean myself up; so that my parents don't ask if something's wrong.

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A/N how are you guys? I've added a song at the top for this chapter! If you can't play it for some reason it's called 'Missing You' by All Time Low. I've chosen this song because it's one of my favourite songs! (I cried when they played it live. like... A lot.) Also I just think it fits this chapter perfectly! Lots of love to you all! xx