*PJ'S POV*
I wake up at the sound of my phone ringing. Sleepily, I pick my phone up off the table on the side of my bed and answer the call.
"Hello?" I say, sleepily.
"Hey sleepy head!" A giggle came from the other side.
"Oh hi Chris!" I rub my eyes.
"Are you coming in today?"
"No sorry mate. Still sick." I lie.
"Okay... see you soon, yeah?" Chris says sadly.
"Hope so."
"Love you."
"Love you, too." I smile, ending the call.
I sigh and put my phone back down on the table.
I haven't seen Chris for quite a while now. I couldn't handle it. I couldn't handle knowing the person I love the most in the world didn't love me back.
It hurts everytime he says he loves me, because I know he doesn't mean in that way. Not in the way I mean it. I wish I could tell him. All I want is to kiss him, to hold him but I'm too scared to tell him how I feel. What if he doesn't feel the same? What if he doesn't like me in that way at all and anything I say would just ruin out friendship? I'm not sure I could cope without him, even as a friend....
A/N: this was kinda crappy and repetitive i know ahah but its just a short filler bc I wanted to try something new and use PJ's POV so yeah thanks for reading and don't forget to comment and vote xxx
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