*DANS POV*
What had I done?
Why was Phil so upset with me?
I turn the corner... He had already gone.
"What the hell was that, Dan!?" Gracie says, walking up to me.
"I.... I'm not sure."
The next two classes I can't stop thinking about what had happened... The memory plays back in my mind a thousand times. Phil standing there, crying his eyes out.... and I don't even know what I've done...
***
I haven't seen Phil all day, he hasn't answered any of my texts or calls. I walk home, feeling guilty. I wish I could make everything right again... but how can you fix something when you don't even know what you've done?
"Hey Dan!" Gracie walks up to me.
"Y'alright?"
"Umm yeah, I'm fine." I reply.
She can tell I'm not. I look down at my feet and my surroundings begin to blur as the first tear forms. I blink it away.
Don't cry.
Don't cry .
Don't cry.
I feel a hand on my shoulder.
"It's okay, Dan." she pauses for a moment.
"It's Phil isn't it?"
I nod.
***
*PHILS POV*
I avoided Dan the rest of the day, I knew if I saw him I would break down crying. Again. I walk home, ignoring any texts I might get from him.
As soon as I get back, I get out my blade. The only thing that would release the pain, a quick escape. I take it in my hand, about to make the first cut, until I'm interrupted by a small buzz. I look at my phone.
Message From: Dan
Please just talk to me Lion
I freeze. My razor drops into the sink as I fall to my knees, letting tears stream freely down my face. There was no point holding them back... Trying to catch my breath, I type out a message.
Phil: can you come round?
Dan: Dont worry I'm coming Lion xx
A/N: This is ruining a perfect '321 words' wow I cri ;-; anyway hope you all enjoyed our fic! I doubt it will get more than 10 reads but every single reader counts and we love you all xxx
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Fanfiction"You don't always have to be brave." Phil struggles with self harm, depression and is bullied at school. The only person who knows is Dan Howell. But they aren't exactly 'friends'... God knows he could use a friend right now..... ~concept~ 1-24 ~ 20...
