//TRIGGER WARNING// MENTION OF SELF-HARM//
*PHILS POV*
I don't know why Dan is helping me. I mean I appreciate it obviously but it's a bit strange... we were suddenly friends again, like nothing ever happened. We sit down and talk for a while.
"You're really cute, you know that Lion?"
Cute.
I'm sure it meant nothing but I can't stop thinking about. I couldn't help but blush. I hope he didn't notice... Dan turns the TV on.
"What do you wanna watch?" He asks gleefully.
"I don't mind, haha." I reply.
He puts on 'My Neighbour Totoro'.
"I love totoro!"
"We used to watch it together all the time as kids" I smile at the memory.
I'm not so much focusing on the film, but looking at Dan. He looks so happy, like a little kid. He turns back to me and smiles. I smile back and continue watching the film.
"I feel a lot better now." I say.
"That's great Lion! I know how to take care of you." He winks.
"Shut up." I laugh, punching him lightly on the arm. He pushes me, making me fall onto the bed. He lies down next to me, giggling. I turn my head to him.
We both stare at each other. He smiles at me, his chocolate brown eyes sparkling. I smile back. Slowly, he leans in. We are so close now that our noses almost touch. He tilts his head to the side and I close my eyes as he puts his hand on my cheek, pulls me in and presses his lips onto mine. It wasn't a passionate kiss. It was sweet, gentle. The perfect first kiss.
My first kiss.
Dan Howell.
Then we hear the door click from downstairs. My eyes widen and I pull away, looking at Dan.
"My parents." Dan gets up. I'm left by myself, sitting on Dan's bed.
What just happened?
Did Dan... Kiss me?
Did I kiss him back?
It's all foggy in my mind. He took me by surprise. What am I supposed to do now? He can't just do something like that then leave me. I start to think.
Do I like Dan?
I mean I know I'm gay, the whole school knows. But I've never really had a boyfriend before...
What am I thinking?
Me and Dan aren't together.
It was just one kiss.
A/N: complete unrelated but MCR just came on MTV :D wow I'm trash sorry anyway don't forget to comment and vote guys xx
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Fanfiction"You don't always have to be brave." Phil struggles with self harm, depression and is bullied at school. The only person who knows is Dan Howell. But they aren't exactly 'friends'... God knows he could use a friend right now..... ~concept~ 1-24 ~ 20...
