Autumn Leaves : Book 4 ( Chris Brown )

Chapter 40

" But yet , it amazes me how something beyond my imagination became my reality "

- Kyler Waters

I am sorry , but I absolutely loooooove that quote . I came up with it on my own . It is mine .

* Kyler *

This woman was holding me , on the floor , in a pencil skirt , and some heels , comforting me as I screamed my heart out . This was the most devastating news I've ever discovered .

I could never imagine having kids by anyone other than Chris . But yet it amazed me how something beyond my imagination became my reality .

I cried and cried and cried until my head felt like it was about to explode , until my face was hot as fuck . I began hyperventilating basically . It wasn't until Linda started calling me down and telling me to breathe .

I took deep breaths . In and Out . So many questions rambled through my head . How would King react ? How would they look at me as a mother ?

I almost started bawling again until I realized I couldn't soak this woman's blazer all day . I couldn't sit on this floor all day .

I sucked it up and stood up . I helped Linda off the floor and gave the best smile that I could " Thank you " Was the last and only thing I said to her , then left .

* Chris *

" So why do we have to go out of town ? " Honey asked .

" You know why . People are gonna start asking questions and shit and I ain't wit it yet " I replied .

" Chris , I feel really guilty " She said .

" I do too . But we both felt something in that kiss . We can't just ignore it " I explained .

" You're right . So what if it happens ? "

" What ? "

" What if we fall in love ? " Honey asked .

" Then we fall in love . Just like any other couple would " I smiled at her .

I don't know if Honey is just in a vulnerable position cause she's single or if we're both just acting stupid . But I feel like me and Honey can actually go somewhere .

And don't get me wrong , I love Kyler with everything in me . But me and her just won't work . I'll always hurt her . We're not made for each other . We don't mesh together properly . And I couldn't imagine going through half things I put her through . I honestly don't know what I'd do if she cheated on me or had another baby by another nigga .

My thoughts were interrupted by a hand on my member " You tryna start some shit in the car ? " I said focusing on the road .

" Ain't that what I'm doing " She said slipping her hand inside my boxers .

I pulled over and we ended up fucking in the backseat of my Lamborghini . I ain't never done this shit before , not even with Kyler .

* Quira *

Right now , my cousin Belle was braiding my hair . I really missed this hoe .

" When do you want me to start the next color ? " She asked .

" Ummmm I'll tell you when " I said eating my Doritos .

My phone started ringing and I answered it .