Love Don't Change (Trilogy to Make It Last Forever)

Did You Wrong

Nicki POV

Ok so turns out the heart monitor that went flatline was someone else's,thank God. I sat next to the bed and looked at Zahir,I still feel somewhat guilty. Knowing that I could've prevented this by getting him to calm down a little really hurts. I rub my thumb over the tattoo he got of my first name and sigh. I look up at Ci and think about the last time we had a full conversation.

*Flashback*

"You let him get in a car and drive while he was upset and crying?! Do you not know that's one of the worst ways anybody can drive?!" Ci yells while walking closer to me

"I'm sorry" I say

I felt so bad even more now.

"What the fuck Nicki?!" She yells while pushing me hard

I grab her arms and pin them to her sides to stop her.

"Don't touch me! Why would you let that happen?" She yells while pushing me again but harder

I could feel my face getting hot as I clench my jaw,she gon stop pushing me,that's what I do know. August and Future break us apart and August moves back with me,I was getting heated af.

"I wasn't thinking,I was caught up in the moment of the conversation,you know how his temper is anyway!" I say

"If he dies I swear I will hate you" Ci cries

Future takes her out of the room and I instantly calm down,and get sad all over again,fuck!

*Flashback Over*

I felt like shit ever since that day,even though she apologized I still feel like if he does die that she will hate me. All I can do is hope for the best and expect the worst. The doctors managed to get his lungs a little stabilized so I'm thankful for that. I pray that everything will be fine,my first child,only son,my everything. All I've been able to do was cry and pray. I can barely form any words to talk to anybody. But right now I do need to talk to somebody,Ciara. It's time to stop the petty shit and talk this out for good,I walk over to her for the first time I did in 5 days and lean down to her ear.

"Can I talk to you,please?" I ask

"Alright" She says

She stands up and we walk out the room and down the hall to the bathroom. We walk in and close and lock the door,this time I'm not gonna stop no matter what it takes.

"I'm really sorry about what happened with Zahir,he started asking me questions out of no where and got upset quickly,and made me realize what I did wrong,it was just overwhelming that I couldn't think straight afterwards,I-" She cuts me off

"It's fine,I'm over that,you didn't think it would lead to what it did and you wasn't in your right mind,it's ok" She says

I find myself in tears and I nod my head.

"I know I've been saying this for so many years now but I'm sorry for hurting you continuously" I say

"Nicki,now is not the time" She says

"It never will be if we don't talk now" I say

"What is it?" She asks

"Do you believe me?" I ask

"No" She says

"Why?" I ask

"All you did was fucking lie and you lied to my face! I'm not gonna keep going through that with you!" She yells

"And I'm sorry,I'm trying to make it up to you and you're not letting me" I say

"I don't want you to! Every time I let you,you turned back around and did the same shit and found ways to make it worse and worse!" She yells