The Journal Of Truth

In the middle

Things are very confusing when you love two guys. I love one of my guy friends and my boyfriend in totally different ways... My friend gives me mixed signals sometimes and my boyfriend is afraid of loosing me. I can see why though. 

My friend is very stubborn and knows how to get his way. Usually he does but I wouldn't want to date him again. He hurt me and cheated on me, but I am very glad he is my friend. I only love him as a friend. He knows me very well and can really relate to me. 

I almost had to choose between my boyfriend and him, but I couldn't choose. I can't choose between them, I love them in different ways and for different reasons. Im happy being with my boyfriend and having him as a friend. 

Things got pretty confusing last night and It's all just hard. Sometimes I wish feelings didn't exist... 

"Until next time..." ~ Countrygirl1055 <3