Breathing

Chapter 53

~Hello all! My birthday was amazing! I spent it with my best friend. We ate tacos and watched This Is Us! Lol We were going to go out buuuut we had an ice storm so we stayed in lol either way I had a blast! Thank you for the Birthday Wishes!!! On Instagram and here!! I had plenty of time to write so here's the next chapter a bit early :)~








Chapter 53


"Harry you have too"

"No. No way. Either we do it together or they can be surprised in 8 months" She was crazy. Charlie actually thought I could be the one to tell her father. ALONE!

"Harry don't be a coward! He can't hurt you!" She rolled her eyes.

"But yes he actually can. Have you seen him? He is like 7 feet tall and could break me in half if he wanted to" I looked at her in disbelief.

"You are honestly the most dramatic person I've ever dealt with" Sitting on the couch she closed her eyes, while pinching the bridge of her nose.

"Would you like me to be there for the birth of baby Styles?"

"Yes! Why wouldn't you be" she frowned.

"Because your dad will KILL me if I tell him alone!" I paced across the room.

"Fine we can tell them together! But stop pacing you are making me dizzy!" She snapped.

I sat down on the edge of the recliner.

"Maybe we should tell Lo and Niall first and then all tell your parents together. We will have strength in numbers!"

She rolled her eyes again, shaking her head.

"If we are going to need numbers its because of your dad not my parents"

"Shit" I mumbled as I remembered my dad already not wanting Charlie and I together. Now he was really going to flip.

"Yea let's talk about how crazy your dad is going to get" she snorted.

"Let's not. In fact we just shouldn't tell him at all. He can wait the 8 months" I suggested.

"What about your mom? I've never even met her. Oh god she's going to think I'm a slut"

"No. She definitely won't." I laughed.
"My mum is the least judgmental person you will ever meet"

"I have the urge to cry right now"

"Why?" I eyed her.

"I don't know. It just feels right"

"It's the hormones."

"Don't start that shit. Don't be one of those boyfriends" she frowned.

"Boyfriend?"

"Sorry I didn't mean.." She trailed off. Looking at the floor.

"I want to be your boyfriend Charlie. Hell with baby Styles on the way I want to be more"

"Please don't do that" she closed her eyes.

"What? Talk about the future? About the possibilities?"

"Harry I've known I was pregnant for a good 72 hours please don't add to the stress"

We had talked almost the entire night of her birthday. I hadn't told her everything with my dad, just that he was really working against us right now. She was understanding to the fact that I was trying to protect her from the situation, but until I told her everything we were still very much broken up. I just didn't want to stress her out with my dad's threats. It was better if I found a solution before she even knew about the problem.

"So until we get back together. Because we will" I smirked. "I get to be your 'baby daddy'" I bit my lip holding back laughter.

She just stared at me.

"I'd rather you tell me 100 bad knock knock jokes every day that I'm carrying this baby. Than have you refer to yourself as my 'baby daddy'" she narrowed her eyes.

"Come on it was funny" I finally laughed.

"It's not." She rolled her eyes.

I stood up moving over to the couch.

"Why are you moving over here?" She eyed me.

"Shhh" I placed my hand on her stomach.

"Harry it's the size of my pinky fingernail. You won't be feeling anything for quite a while" she laughed.

"It's a boy"

"It's actually a girl" she grinned.

"No it's a boy and his name will be...Jackson!"

"How about no. Even if it was a boy it's name would not be Jackson eww" she scrunched her nose.

"I like Jackson because it sounds bad ass." I defended.

"Her name will be Lilly!"

"Isn't that sweet...to bad it's a boy and his name could be Edward? We can give him my middle name" I offered.

"No that's alright...let's just call it something generic for now like..."

"Buzz!"

"You want to call my baby bump 'Buzz'? Seriously?" She almost laughed.

"Why not love? Its funny and represents both of us. Toy Story is ace!"

"We have plenty of time to pick out names don't ya think?" She eyed me.

"Well buzz will hold us over until we decide." I smiled.

"Oh my god. I can't believe we're going to call our baby Buzz" she shook her head.

"I think it's clever-"

A knock at the door interrupted our conversation. I sighed getting up and walking to the door.

"It's Niall and Lo" I yelled back to Charlie, as I opened the door.

Lo walked in past me as Niall followed.

"Ok is that really Charlie's car parked down the street cause I cou-"

She stopped when she got to the living room.

"What are you doing here?" She beamed.

"Uhh Harry and I needed to talk about some stuff"

Seriously?

"You guys back together?" Niall whispered as Lo pulled Charlie into conversation.

"Working on it" I frowned.

"Cool" We walked back into the living room. I sat in the recliner, while Niall took the last seat on the couch.

"So we should make up for your birthday and drink tonight"

"She can't drink!" I blurted.

"Harry!" Her eyes wide.

"Uh the uh antibiotics she's on..she uh can't mix with alcohol" I lied.

"Oh. Well how long are you on them?" Lo looked at her.

"Uhh like a -"

"9 months" I whispered.

"Wait what?" Niall looked back and forth between us.

She glared at me. They would find out anyways.

"Charlie are-" he stopped and looked at me, before turning back to her. "Are you pregnant?"

"No she's not pregnant you fool!" Lo swatted his arm.

"Yes" she sighed. Bending over so her forehead rested on her knees.

"What?" Lo stood up. Eyeing her hunched over friend.

"She's pregnant Lo" I rolled my eyes.

"Yea I got that. Why didn't you tell me?"

"We haven't told anybody Lo. And I only have 8 months left. Thank you Harry!" Charlie sat up.

"Do your parents even know?"

"Nobody but the people in this room" she sighed.

"Meet Buzz" I smirked.

"Who is Buzz?" Niall looked between us.

"The baby" Charlie groaned.

""You're naming it Buzz?" Lo choked.

"No that's the name of her bump"

"That's priceless" Niall laughed. Lo didn't appear amused much like Charlie.

"You always say Niall can't keep his mouth shut and here you are with the 'Styles tell all' and they haven't even been here 5 minutes!" She scolded me.

"They would find out anyways. It's not like we haven't noticed you've gained weight-" I regretted that as soon as I said it.

"Fuck you Harry!" She growled.

"Maybe we should come back..later"
Niall stood up.

"I didn't mean that in a bad way. It's just your boobs appear ..bigger..."

"Why are you looking at my boobs?! That's what got us into this mess!"

"Yea we'll just come back tomorrow or something.." Niall took Lo's hand leading her to the door.

"Love I'm just saying you're curves are more defined! It's a complement!" I defended.

"Shut up Harry, you are such a guy!" She sighed crossing her arms over her chest.

"Can we still call it buzz?"

"Shut up!"

This would be a long 8 month.


After much debate on when to tell our parents. We decided to tell my mum first. She was the furthest away and would be a not so negative start.

"Hold on. Mum can you hear me?"

"Yes Harry! I've missed you love!" She beamed.

"I miss you too mum" I tried fighting the smile. Charlie being pregnant was definitely a surprise to us both. At the same time. I loved her and couldn't imagine being in this situation with anybody else. So telling my mum was a bit exciting, for me at least.

"What's the reason for two skype calls in one month" she teased.

"Well I wanted you to meet a couple people...Charlie come here"I reached out for her hand as she sat next to me at the table.

"Hi" she was a bit nervous, understandable. She never met my mother and the first time she does it's to tell her that I've knocked her up.

"Hello sweetie! It's nice to finally meet/see you" My mums warm smile visibly relaxed Charlie. She was so tense. "Are you taking care of my boy"

"Trying to but he's a handful" she laughed.

"Tell me about it. When he was little I had trouble getting him to follow directions. I would lay his clothes out after his bath. The next morning when he got dressed for school I'd noticed the clean pants laying in the same spot. His excuse was he forgot" I felt my cheeks heat. I really did forget to put them on sometimes.

"He still has that problem...forgetting things" Charlie gave a fake smile good enough to fool anybody but me.

I shook my head.

"Sorry to hear that. I did the best I could" my mum laughed. "Love who was the other person you wanted me to meet. It better not be Niall again." She teased. Niall liked to causally introduce himself to my mother at least twice a year in hopes she would go on a date with him.

"No it's not Niall this time." I nervously laughed.

"Well who?" She smiled.

"Uh we would like you to meet Buzz"

"Buzz? Is that a dog or something?" She laughed.

"No mum. Buzz is definitely not a dog.. You can't see him right now though"

"Harry. Is this one of your bad jokes because it's already not funny sweetie" she offered a sympathetic smile.

"So I'm not the only one" Charlie mumbled. I shot her a look.

"No mum..you will meet Buzz..in about 8 months.." I half smiled.

"8 months?" She looked directly into the camera. "Wait. You mean.." Her hands covered her mouth. She closed her eyes and shook her head.

"What's happening? Is she crying because she thinks I'm a slut?" Charlie whispered. Worry etched on her face.

"No shhh. Mum are you ok?"

"I'm fine I'm just...I'm just so happy!" The tears came in full force.

"Oh god come on mum pull it together" She was as bad Charlie with her emotions.

"Are you ok? Have you seen the doctor yet?" Her questions were directed to Charlie.

"I'm fine I have an appointment next week with my doctor. She will explain everything I guess and we will go from there." Charlie still sounded unsure of herself.

"Oh this is just so exciting. Harry give us a minute. Go do something" my mum shooed me away.

"Will you be alright?" I looked at Charlie.

"Yea I'll be fine" she smiled.

I left the room. Leaving the two most important women in my life alone for the first time. I laid down on our bed..my bed. Waiting for the all clear. The excitement and shock was exhausting and sleep took over before I knew it.


Charlie's POV


Standing in the door way to his room, I watched him sleep. His lips slightly parted, soft snores escaping. Talking to his mom helped. She was very supportive and offered great insight. After all she had given birth to her own 'buzz'. Walking over to the bed. I pulled the covers up to his bare chest. No matter how cold it was, he always managed to kick them off. He stirred turning on to his stomach.
His left arm shooting out across the bed.

"Charlie?" He mumbled.

I backed away from the bed.

"Charlie? I love you" I covered my mouth. Even in his sleep his words tugged at my heart. His arm moved over my spot next to him. Not finding me he quietly whimpered.

Leaving the room I pulled the door closed. He was making this break up harder than he knew. Yes I still loved him. The secrets were just to much though. He still hadn't told me what his dad was doing to cause him so much grief. Just that he was taking care of it. That didn't stop me from worrying. We still had several things to discuss and it was already 10 o'clock. I could leave now but it would take me almost an hour to get home. I sat on the couch grabbing a throw blanket from the back. I laid back spreading the blanket over me.


When I woke up I was surrounded by pillows. I looked around realizing I wasn't in the living room anymore. Pushing the pillows out of the way I swung my legs off the bed.

"Oww!"

I pulled my legs back. Reaching for the lamp and pulling the chain.

"Harry? What are you doing on the floor? Why am I in your room?" I looked over the edge of the bed.

"You really thought I would let you sleep on the couch?" He sat up rubbing his hands over his face.

"Why am I surrounded by pillows?" I looked around moving them out of the way.

"Well I wanted to make sure you and buzz were safe. I know how you move around a lot in your sleep and I didn't want him-"

"First off stop calling her a he. Second why are you on the floor?" I laughed.

"Well there wasn't enough room for me and the pillows." He yawned.

He never failed to amaze me with his thoughtful gestures.

"Babe I don't need all these pillows. Buzz and I are fine sleeping on the couch"

"No I don't want you that far away." He sighed.

"Harry we aren't together. You don't have to-"

"Don't remind me Charlie. Please"
He ran his hand through his hair.

I nodded and pushed some of the pillows off the bed.

"Please don't sleep on the floor. I don't need all the pillows and there is plenty of room for you without them"

He looked up from his sitting position on the floor.

"Are you sure?"

"Very" I smiled.

"Good cause my back is killing me" he got up climbing into the bed next to me. I reached over turning the lamp back off.

He pulled the covers over both of us. Instinctively I snuggled into his chest. My face pressed into his neck.

"As much as I enjoy having you this close. I don't know if I can promise not to hold on to you" he breathed.

"Maybe I want you to hold on to me"

A long arm was wrapped around my waist pulling me as close as possible.

"Good night baby mama"

"You're so stupid" I laughed.

I don't know how much longer I could hold out. It was my idea to break up but he hadn't given me much choice. Either way not being able to say he was mine was slowly eating at me.

To think I use to be upset when he referred to me as "his". I was finally starting to understand.