A Not so Perfect Story

Part 19- Friends With Benefits

Friends With Benefits
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     Of course I wake up with a huge headache, but I don't really mind it. I won't mind my headache if I can just lay in bed and just be in complete silence. I sigh rolling onto my side, "please, I wanna die my dear Satan. Kill meh...plz," I whisper sarcastically to myself.

     I start to doze off into a small nap. I really want to take a nap, naps make me feel really happy on the inside. I was just about to fall asleep until my door slams closed, "WHATS UP MOTHER FUCKER!?" I hear someone yell, as they plop on a small seat. The voice was most definitely Calvin. I groan, sitting up and looking over at him, "Calvin! This is a hospital, you can't yell what's up mother fucker!" I say rolling my eyes. Calvin laughs, "whoops..." he give me a look with a smirk. I growl, "don't you dare," he's going to yell something stupid, and then we are going to get in trouble by some pedo old man, and they are gonna rape us in the booty hole!

     Calvin clears his throat, "YAS DADDY!" he yells with a slight laugh. I growl, "stooop!" I whine, with puppy eyes. Calvin laughs walking over to me, "we can never be fucking serious," he chuckles pulling a chair up next to me, and he sits down onto it. I sit up turning over to him, "because we are little fucking kids!" I laugh. "Well no fucking shit, Sherlock!" he jokes nudging my arm slightly. I roll my eyes playfully, "okay well...you see! Look I'm alive! I'm not a spooky ghost, OOOOOOOO sooo spooky!" I laugh awkwardly, because I have a slight feeling that shit is about to get real.

     Calvin chuckles, "yeah I can see that, but Haden we-" I cut off his sentence, "yeah yeah yeah!" I take a deep breath, "I can say exactly what you are gonna say, look! Haden we need to talk. Why did you do that, I'm here for you! Haden it's okay if you need someone to talk to I can talk to you if you need to. Wanna hug? Cuz I wanna hug, hugs for days! YAY!" I breathe awkwardly. Calvin smiles in a cute but dumb way, "well...uh yeah I guess I was gonna say that. And yeah! Hugs!" he laughs, pulling me into a warming hug.

     I laugh softly, putting my head into his chest, "I'm so sorry..." I whisper. Calvin sighs, "let-let's just not talk about it right now," he chuckles softly. I nod my head, and move away from his embrace. My hands start to shake as I look away from Calvin's face, "what's wrong?" he asks. "Y-you almost lost me too," I say weakly, looking back at him.

He caresses my cheek, "yeah....almost, I almost fucking lost you," he laughs softly. I roll my eyes, "I get it I ALMOST died!" I say grinding my teeth together. He smirks, pulling me into a kiss. A light pinkish rose color platers my face as we pull away from each other. I wasn't expecting him to kiss me at all, because if you think about it we are basically friends with benefits. Wow, I'm actually a slut if you think about that too!

     I bite my lip, "well uh," I laugh softly, I mean the kiss was fucking everything to me...but this all doesn't feel right. Since this baby is gone...I don't feel the need to be so jealous of what he does, and well who he does. I just don't feel the same spark that we used to share. My stomach turns, "I need some rest," I say quickly, laying into bed. "...oh-okay," he lets out a awkward chuckle, "bye," he sighs walking out of my room, closing the doors behind him. I turn face first into my pillow and let out a small scream. Oh who am I kidding! The scream was barely even muffled by that pillow. I slowly turn to my side, and put my hand onto my abdomen. I gulp, "this kid was the only reason I loved him so much," I whisper to myself, "r-right?" I say as a single tear drops off of my check. "I don't-I can't love him....I just can't," I softly weep into my pillow.

     I wished those pills worked.