Take A Chance On Me || William Nylander

Part XLI

A/N: Confrontation is about to happen! 

Mariana's POV- December 2016

"Give me a good reason why I shouldn't close the door?"

I looked at William and nodded.

"You can do that if you want" I replied.

He looked at me and stepped back.

"I can, but I promised Ellie I'd hear you out"

He lightly grinder his teeth as he looked at me.

"Even if you didn't"

His jaw tensed and he signaled with his head.

"Come on in"

I slowly stepped inside the condo and turned to him as he closed the door.

"Living room is this way"

I followed him out of the small hallway and into the living room. 

"Sit down where ever you want"

I took a seat and I watched as he sat as far away as he could from me. He looked at me and let out a sigh.

"Why are you here?"

"I owe you an explanation" I told him.

He smiled and lightly chuckled.

"I deserved that in May, don't you think?"

He raised an eyebrow as his mouth formed a straight line.

"Your life is much better without me" I stated.

He laughed and I watched as he showed his first emotion. His eyes glossed up as he stared at me.

"Boy are you wrong there"

He chuckled and shook his head.

"Did your brother tell you about that panic attack I had in front of him?"

I nodded slowly.

"Do I seem well to you?"

He looked well physically, but mentally I knew he wasn't.

"I haven't slept a whole 8 hours since the day I got dumped with a note. When I do sleep more than 8 hours it's usually because I'm hung over or because I'm exhausted from a panic attack I had! I'm not well at all"

He needed to let all of this out, so I let him.

"Do you know how exhausting it is to not show anyone your emotions?"

He pushed his hair back and closed his eyes when he flinched.

"Cause I've been doing that since May, and it's exhausting!"

I don't think he noticed, or cared but he was shaking.

"Girls throw themselves at me, and I push them away because I'm still in love with you!"

He stood up and I watched as he paced.

"How do you think I felt that night when I got back from a game to find a box with everything I gave you in front of the door with a note saying I'm sorry, I can't do this?"

He stopped pacing and looked at me.

"You never let me give you an explanation, and that's what hurt the most. That you believed my psycho ex-girlfriend!"

I heard the door open and he stopped talking. Kasperi and Nikita both walked into the living room and I watched them scramble back out. The door closed and William turned to look at me.