Runaway (Jason Mccann)

Chapter 48

AMBER POV:

'Peace bro' I hear someone shouting.

I can't make out who it was because my ears are numb and I can't feel anything.

the top half of my body is sore and full of pain, my arms are wrapped round myself but not fully.
My fingers kept slipping into holes.

Holes in my body.

I saw Ryan knee down next to me.

Nobody ever loved me.
Nobody ever wanted me.
And everyone that did love me was gone.

Jason.
And that's it.
But he isn't coming back, he won't open them chocolate eyes I gazed into every night.
He won't.

If I die right now I'll be with him, I'll get a new life.
That's the way I'm thinking of it because right now I am dying.

My vision is going and it's blurry, like someone who has thick glasses but has lost them.

My hearings going more and more by the second and I keep hearing this beeping noise through my ears, like a flat fire alarm.

The pain in my body isn't going though.
It's hurting more by the minute, it's a pain that you can't really explain.

You have to experience it to know it.
But nobody deserves to experience this.
Holes in your body.
Blood pouring out like there's no tomorrow.

Well there won't be a tomorrow for me I hope.

I look up and see Ryan, he looks worried,scared and angry all in one.

He picks me up and I shiver as he does because I know he's going to try to save me but I don't want saving.

I don't want to live another day.

I open my mouth to talk but nothing comes out, I feel something coming up my throat and before I know it I was coughing up clots of blood, they wouldn't stop coming out.
They were massive blotches of blood coloured light red, scarlet red and black.

I cough up one for the last time and I my eyes then go heavy on me.

I'm dying now.

And I want to die.

So good riddance to America and Canada alike.

I close my eyes and rest.
But how can you rest when all you feel is pain?