The Lone Wolf

Running is Wrong

Eric. He is why I'm doing this. He is why I want to die. Hell with it, I'm mute anyway. Obviously there is something wrong with him... and me.

I miss the way it used to be , I know I sound crazy but I miss my old pack. I miss when My sister nagged and her mate bugged me. I missed the comments given to me and I miss the work I was forced to do.

Its was way better than having your heart broken everyday. To constantly give your trust to someone who Always disobeys you. I regret leaving.

I regret it. I loved it when I used to count my bruises and get kicked in the face. I loved the abuse. I would have taken it any other day than to feel this pain.

My tenth reason. I can't believe I even tried to leave. I wouldn't have had such a dick for a mate. Always there is a problem and every time he messes up I get hurt.

If I stayed with my pack right now... I would be in my ripped mattress in the attic. I would at least be a little happy. I would be laying on my window side staring at the stars.

My sister would nag and I would work. At least people didn't hurt my heart. They would hurt me physically. But I would always be happy emotionally.

I'm shattered.

I looked around the room for the last time before I started to think silently. I thought in my mind lyrics as my wolf sung through our link.

"My heart is shattered,Nothing else matter. The fates are such a curse.

The broken dreams , although it seems like ill forgive. But I'll never forget the pain. The look in your eyes, the regret I'm feeling, because of you im leaving.

I could die from all this hate, moongoddess why did I deserve , such a heartless mate.

I'm in the dark. I'm locked away. My spirits lost and I am broken.

The pain is overwhelming. Why do I have to be afraid. After all I am such a disgrace.

The love I felt, has disappeared. My dreams are lost, I cannot live like this anymore.

I cannot bear it.. the pain from Eric.. Why did my second chance be him.

Now I'm here, Alone and living in fear. In the dark, because im such a big mistake.Moongoddess Why did I deserve such a heartless mate."