Black Rose

Chapter Twenty Seven

Joker's POV

    I try to calm myself down by reminding myself the doctor is on her way. What happened? What set her off? The doctor said it could be her diet or low iron, but deep down, I know it has something to do with revealing my name. I knew I shouldn't have waited so long to tell her. I have been wanting to ask her for awhile if the kids could have my last name and if she would take it too when we married. For some reason, it would mean a lot to me even though I no longer go by that name.

    Part of me wanted to hear that name from her. When she called me Jack, although she was weak, it did things to my heart that surprised me. I would love to hear it again but not if she was going to pass out every time she said it!

    Also what the fuck was up with her and sending MY henchman on an errand? That made me mad. What was so fucking important? I realize I am down of the floor with her and decide to lift and put her on the bed. I joke about how big she has gotten but she is still so small. I groan when I see the time. Fuck.

    I check my phone and right on time. Its Harley. She sent another nude picture, this one exposing her 'Property of Joker' tattoo and a message saying 'I'm all yours Puddin''. I have been getting these from her 3 times a day, everyday since the first one. At a time, I would reply with threats to leave me alone but then she would just reply with videos of her masturbating or old ones of us fucking. I was fearful for Rosalie to ever see the shit she sent so I always  avoided her at those times of the day.

    We can't seem to pinpoint where she is located unless this would have been taken care of. On top of that, I am dealing with the stress of Rosie's family getting closer and closer. Why can't I just live peacefully with my future wife and children? Is this what they call karma for all I have done? If so then it will only get worse. I frown at the thought. A knock is on the door. I give permission to enter.

    Its one of my men and Dr. Ludwig. Only Dr. Ludwig comes in and slams the door shut in the man's face. "Okay let's see what is going on. Let's get her into the medical room." I nod and scoop my girl into my arms. I take her to the other room and put her on the hospital bed. Dr. Ludwig hooks her up to a bunch of wires and starts an IV. She takes a blood sample. I wait and just hold my girl's hand and stare at her beautiful face. I can't lose her. I logically tell myself it isn't that serious but I just can't stop the thoughts. I don't want to wait and get married. I need her to be my wife right now.

    After what seems like forever, the doc has the results. "Okay so her iron is pretty low and she is a little dehydrated. I am going to keep giving her IV fluids and an iron injection. Let's let her rest though. She should come to in a couple hours. I will stay here till she does to make sure everything is okay." I nod.

    "Thank you" I whisper slowly. She looks shocked but nods. The doc opens her laptop and presumably does work. I just hold Rosie's hand, listening to the machines letting me know she is alive. Her chest is moving but she is so cold and pale. Where is my little furnace?

    After a few hours, Johnny barges in carrying a big metal lock box. "What's going on? Is she okay?" The doctor looks at me for permission and I nod, she fills Johnny in. I zero in on the box. I get up and grab it. I take off to my bedroom with it, telling Johnny to stay with her as I leave. I lock pick the lock and open it. In it is a bunch of papers, mostly birth certificate and social security stuff. Some are stocks. There is some jewelry boxes. Then I see photos but only one is framed. I turn it over and never have I been more shocked in my entire life.

    There she is, looking very young, staring at a man older than her. He is staring back as they hug, the love is evident in their face. The man is me. Before I came the Joker. As Jack Napier. I scream as memories come back causing my head to feel split open.

    "The baby isn't even yours, Jack! It is Nick's, I have been seeing him for over a year. You are so stupid, you didn't even realize we didn't have sex the month we 'conceived'" The blonde woman yelled in my face. I wanted to hit her. She has been wasting my time. I didn't even love her! The whole reason I stayed with her is because she was pregnant. I could have ended this and been with her... the one I really love.

I wanted to be with Rosalie. She was so beautiful and innocent in every way. She was my best friend. She even kissed me when I told her about Jeanie cheating on me. It almost went further but I had to stop, I was still married and she was still so young. I filed for my divorce and was looking forward to my future. Hopefully she would wait for me till she was eighteen.

I threw myself into my work with her family's mafia. I worked mostly with her brothers on risky jobs. I wanted her family's respect and enough money to provide for her. Jeanie was jealous, I worked harder for Rosalie than I ever did for her. She tried to apologize, tried to have sex but I wouldn't touch her. My heart belonged to Rosie.  

Rosie grew upset with me. She didn't know all I was doing for her and I didn't want to get her hopes up in case things didn't work out. She thought me a fool to stay with Jeanie. Then one day, I came home and the apartment was ruined. Jeanie was dead.

I couldn't bring myself to be upset. I felt relieved more than anything but that made me angry. It was worse when I told Rosie and she had to fight the excitement and try and show pity and concern. I lost it then. I told her everything I felt for her and how she was my whole world, because she was. I told her of the future I wanted to start with her and everything. I just had one big job to do with her brothers and we would be set for awhile.

That was the night I fell into the waste. That was the night I became the Joker and the night I lost more than I could remember.

No...I opened my eyes and I was on the floor. I must not have been out long. I was her first love, I broke her heart, we lost OUR baby. I tried to blink away the tears but the came in thick sobs. When I calmed down, I can to where she was. She was awake.

"Hey, were just about to get yo-" Johnny started.

"Leave" I told him curtly. Him and the doctor left. I tried to take in Rosalie. To think at one point she looked even younger. To think that I was actually her first.

"How could you?" She said softly with betrayal on her face. I did something that I have never truly done before. I got on my knees and begged for forgiveness and understanding. I told her all the memories that just came back and most importantly, I told her how I have always loved her and how she was always the one, explaining how I could never truly love anyone else because I part of me knew she was missing.

It was my most humane moment since I became the Joker. I started to worry that she would want the old me back. I think she could tell.

"J, look-" She started but I cut her off.

"Will you please call me Jack? I love how it sounds coming from your voice,." I ask her.

She smiles "Jack, we are not the same people who fell in love. I will never be that innocent little girl and you will no long be that shy guy. We have changed and even the world would say it was for the worst, I say it is for the better. We are stronger, braver, more mature, more confident, and more in love. I like who we are now, but now our backstory is just a bit cuter." She smiles and so do I. She continues "I mean, you are now the only man to have my heart and I lost my virginity to you, hell you are the only man I have ever made love to." We both know she is careful with her words so she doesn't include her rape. I comfort myself at the thought, he died at my hands.