Titanic ~Yoonmin ( Completed )

Chapter 11

' o god .... what have I done...?'

Yoongi's POV

' fuck , fuck' " fuck!" I screamed out loud , earning stairs from the other passengers, But I didn't care. All I cared about is getting Jimin back.

I looked out over the sea, guilt consuming me as tears filled my eyes. I leant down on the banister crying , thinking about what we could have had. 'God I'm such an idiot!' I thought as I gritted my teeth.....

After spending nearly the hole day crying and sobbing over my stupidity, I finally took in a deep breath looking over the beautiful sunset..

It just made me remember Jimin , everywhere I looked .... it was Jimin....

Remembering when we would watch the sun set , how we would stay up on deck all day .... just us two...

And my stupid words that night , between me and my mother...

' It's her fault'

I thought as I made my way down towards my room ...

Once I finally made it to my room , I bury through the door, my eyes red and puff , spilling with tears. My parents attention immediately changed towards me.

"Y-Yoongi? What happened?!" My mother asked , rushing over to me.

"Get away" I said through gritted teeth.

"W-what?" She questioned confused.

" I said .... get away" I replied firmly " it's all your fault".

"Yoongi I don't understand, what's the problem?" She asked , still trying to approach me.

" What's the problem? What's the problem?!" I screamed " thanks to you, you made the one person I loved more than anything in the world hate me! You've made my life a fucking misery! Its all your fault! If you hadn't of said those things about him , then we wouldn't of heard those dreadful things I said sarcastically! He wouldn't have gotten the wrong idea and he wouldn't have tried to commit suicide last night! That's the problem!" I screamed , tears running down my face.

"Y-Yoongi.." my mother started.

" I hate myself for what I did to him, I don't like who I am. ....There's nothing good about me anymore......I'm sick of wasting my time.....
I'm sick of living....
Everyday is just a struggle. I eat the same demons everyday when I wake up.
I'm so tired.
I don't know what happened to me or where I went wrong....
Everything I have ever cared about is gone... ruined , turned to shit ... dead....
I have never been more alone... I have nothing , no one , alright it's all gone.... that's all I have to say." I finished , walking off into my room.

I ran and jumped on my bed, ' God what should I do?' I questioned. 'I can't lose him.... no I won't lose him!' I thought as I started to get to work.....

Jimin's POV

'That's it then' I thought as I lay on my bed, looking upwards ,facing the bottom of Tae's bed. 'What do I do now?' I questioned, not really knowing what to do with myself.

"Jimin , stop thinking about that piece of shit" Tae said from his bed above mine , bring me out of my trance.

"Don't call him that" I replied.

"Why? That's what he is" Tae spits.

"Because" I said sitting up in my bed " he wouldn't do something like that....would he?" I asked up to Tae.

" Well since he fucking did.... I'm gonna go with yes" Tae said popping his head down from his bunk as I let out a sigh."Look Jimin , you need to move on. I know it seems hard , but just try to forget about him okay?" Tae asked concerned.