Breaking Boundaries

Chapter 24 - Through Text Messages

       I hated this. The day seemed black and white to me just like my mood. For twenty-six hours, my smile was wiped out of my face. I didn't sleep, I was completely restless. Jason was talking to me but I couldn't hear him. All I saw was his mouth moving and I nodded, pretending I was hearing everything he was saying. Caro was besides me only she wasn't saying anything back to Jason. She was watching me the entire time we walked together in the hallway. I tried to put on my best face that spoke nothing but calm manner. I didn't want to be the interlocutor today. Getting through Jason was easy but for some reason it wasn't like that for Caro. She figured me out in three strides.

"Jason, stop talking. We're going to the ladies room," she says, pulling at my hand before dragging me through the doors of the bathroom. Where did the bathroom come from? Checking every stalls to make sure no one was on the loo, Caro faces me.

"This isn't the Maya I know. This Maya right here is in distress and I want my old friend back. But in order for me to fix it, I need to know. Spill the beans," she says, backing me up against the sink. I sigh.

"He's avoiding me," I mumble, looking at myself at the reflection. My appearance is normal. My hair is good and secured in loose curls, my outfit is fine and detailed with extra care, even my face is covered in adequate makeup to hide my distressful appearance. I'm fine for the most part but mentally and spiritually I'm elsewhere. Reminiscing back in New Jersey when I was still under my mother's strict roof, I remember upsetting my mother. And she didn't talk to me for three days, she avoided me completely other than sliding food towards me. Upsetting her upset me for the most part even though I disliked my mother. I tried everything in my power to pacify a very strict, time-wasting, woman and in the end when I didn't win, I let her be. That was different. I upset Klaus and now he's avoiding me. He avoided me for a whole day and a half and this right here—feels like the ground has slipped from underneath my feet. For one whole day and night I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, couldn't even function right in the bathroom.

He's not worthless. He's not time-wasting. He's someone I care about. He's someone I—

"What did you do?" Caro asks, pulling me out of my trance. She's Daniel's woman now. What can I hide from her? So I tell her. Leaving the 'all night bang bang' part out, of course. Caro leans against the sink with me, sighing.

"Any other woman would be sitting behind bars right now," she says. I tighten my grip against the skin, guiltily.

"Not helping."

"I can't tell you what to do." She points at my chest. "Your heart will tell you what to do."

I smile. "Daniel has changed you quite a bit." She blushes crimson, and avoiding my accusation, she diverts the topic.

"Life gives us a manuscript for a lot of things to prepare ourselves. But love in first sight doesn't come with a label or a warning. It just happens, you know?" Carl's words halts me in my tracks, preventing me from taking a step forward or back. I'm frozen solid on the same exact spot I've been standing in. Love in first sight? Normally, I'd argue with her on it but how can I? I read about 'Love at First Sight' And I understood it every time. People do crazy things to win the other person's attention. Is that what I have been doing all along? Emotions are heightened. Is that what's been happening to me? Sadness overcomes everything in life when something so great falls apart. Is that what I'm going through right now?

Before I can open my mouth, Cara pushes me out of the bathroom and into the opening. Jason has disappeared. Caro and I walk together.

"What if he doesn't feel the same way I do? What if all this is just...a one sided feeling?"