The Bad Boy Changed Me

Chaper18

Chapter 18:

look in the mirror only to notice my puffy eyes, and my red face. Today was the day of my best friends funeral. The whole in my heart is burning for her, it's bleeding again. Sebastian has business to take care of leaving me only to not be around him for a week.

Why are you thinking of him?
Sympathy you don't like him.... He is just a friend right?

I push my thoughts to the back of my head. Grabbing my dress I pull the long black laced dress on, pull my hair into a tight silk bun on the back of my head, I placed the a black placed cut head band around me head which formed a bow, While lastly I placed a long black scarf over my right shoulder the word
"Forever in our hearts -Lilly- " in light grey letters.

I turn my body hearing a soft knock on the door.

"Yes mom?"

"Honey, you look beautiful." Mom sniffled out.

"Thank you mom." I say blankly.

"We shall walk then, the limbo has arrived."

We walk into the Limbo only to see faces of family members who had hardly been in Lilly's life. But I know truly loved her. Mrs. Jonas and Mr. Jonas sat very close, with Mrs.Jonas laying her head on Mr.Jonas for support.

***

"We gather here today. To celebrate the passing on of Lilly Jonas.-"

Every other word that was spoken, every other speech that was given was Blind. People were speaking to please everyone and wasn't speaking the truth of Lilly. My turn was last... I had not written a card because I knew that what was meant to say, it would be spoken from my heart in that very moment.

I walked up on the stand in front of Lilly's casket. It was a hidden casket that has pictures and memories of her with me, and her family.

The silence was nerve recking and awkward. But I began my words.

"I am sickened, disgusted.... I am a lot of this right now.... One thing I know I feel is afraid. I do I move on without Lilly? How will I force my self to wake up and have a purpose when I was nearly only doing it for her. I will not blame the person who has done this to me, who has made my heart bleed. I will blame the parents who has done SO well at raising Lilly. Mr.Jonas , Mrs.Jonas you raised a Warrior who was going to do SO MUCH-"

My breath was caught in my throat, I took a pause and walked to Lilly's casket. In noticed tears abandoned my I'm sure now pink eyes.

I pointed to a picture of Lilly and I.
"At this very night, An old woman with the name of Cynthia sat in the mall in the corner by the door when we walked in Lilly smiled at her. After shopping for at least 3-4 hours ... it was dark, it was chilly, and the mall was emptying by the second. Lilly walked up to her and she said... 'Do you need a ride some where? Do you need money ?'
Although the lady was unsure of who she was, and clearly an  frightened woman she nodded her head no. Lilly  insisted on helping her. The lady refused... Lilly sat on the bench next to her placing her bags aside. The lady was confused and asked 'What are you doing dear?' Lilly explained to her that she wasn't going to take her bottom off that bench until she was home and safe.-"

"That same night we made very good friends with Mrs.Cynthia. We learned about her dead husband, and her forgetful grandson. We ate with her and learned about wars a long time ago... before her 'forgetful' grandson arrived Lilly stuck a number in her pocket telling her that she had a great night and that we would never forget her. That was who Lilly Jonas was.... That night was by far one of the best shopping sprees at the mall I have ever had thanks to the girl laying in the casket lifeless....MY best friend."

I looked up to see everyone was silently crying. But one person.... An older lady who was sitting in a wheelchair. With a nurse standing behind her.

It was Cynthia. She has used the number we gave her. Lilly would be so happy for her to be in Now good hands. I walked to her and placed my head on her lap hugging her.

"Thank you dear."

***

Today was the longest day ever. After my speech, and seeing Cynthia everyone was thanking me and crying even more. My parents just held each other and helped confront the Jonas's.

I'm home now and I have multiple text messages from un known people. Two voicemails catch my eye and I first listen to Sebastian's

"I only have a few seconds to tell you this.... I may can make it back home soon, so when I do I'd really like to -"

In the background of the call someone yelled Sebastian's name.

"Sympathy... call me back?"

I smiled a small smile and played the next voicemail.

"You BITCH I am going to FUCKING KILL YOU! If you don't do it your damn self!, I hate you, I hate you,I hate you.... You killed my best friend! You killed my fucking cousin...Mike! I heard the voicemail you sent him, thanks to YOU NOW HE IS FUCKING LAYING IN THE HOSPITAL STRUNG OUT ON MED'S.... Dead. I'm going to make your life a living fucking  hell."

I took my phone and walked myself to Lilly's grave. I stood there. And when the rain began to fall i crumpled to the ground in tears.

"Lilly I made your boyfriend kill him self.. I'm so so sorry."

I laid there, and I felt my eyes. See dark and my body relax.

        Sebastian P.O.V

I pulled her into my arms. Her now wet clothes sticking to her I placed her in the backseat laying her head down and turning the heat all the way up to dry her.

" You will be okay soon Sympathy, Very soon."