RANTS AND MY THOUGHTS

A poem?????idk

(from the thing lmao)
Sometimes I look to the skies
And all I see a blank canvas
Not a single cloud, only the glowing ball and blue space
What is this?
A metaphor?
A metaphor for when I walk down school halls
And all it feels like is a lonely ocean with one fish
That fish feels so unbelievably lonely
Suddenly,
A cloud appears.
The fish waits for it come near and to bring something too
Something that could fill it's heart with joy
Like opening the first gift on Christmas
Like when it's the dawn of your birthday
Like flying on a plane for the first time to go to your dream location
Like catching up with your old friend
The cloud passes,
All you've received is nothing
You're left both disappointed and empty
Like the gift wasn't something you wanted
Like no one saying "happy birthday"
Like getting to your hotel after that long plane ride only to find yourself unable to sleep in the bed
Like finding out that your friend's life has not gone well or they don't remember your name
It leaves you empty
The gap still growing
But you're just a fish
You can't speak
You can't do much
Because that's all you are.
Just a Fish.
In a sea.
With waves towering higher than the Eiffel Tower and sweet pancakes on Sunday mornings
Those waves push and toss you
Like slamming on the breaks and your body slams back into the seat only to have you bounce right back
Fear builds up,
Tears build up,
Just like the scars in your wrist after two weeks of hard school work and drama
But you can't let that show
Or you'll be pitied and avoided
So you have to power through
Like an ant outrunning a flood in it's tunnels
It just keeps going and going
Yes, sometimes the water catches up
But the ant just keeps going
Going.
Going.
And going.
After what feels like a lifetime, the ant gets away
It sees daylight again
Just like the fish will find a rain cloud
Just like how I'll get to the next class
Just like a happy ending