The Lethal Princess (Completed) Wattys2015 Winner

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Song: Avril Lavigne - Goodbye Lullaby

Two slow sad weeks have gone by. Sluggishly I'm getting over Ike. The pain is dull but always aching and raw. They taunt me and slowly make me suffer with their happy smiles and tender couple moments, but I simply ignore it. It's something I wanted once upon a time, but now I wish I could just forget about that.

I don't really talk to Ike anymore and I think I like it that better way. The painful breaths and beating heartaches are less intense that way.

"Avril." Mist's voice knocked the attention off my unpleasant pondering. Leisurely, my eyes scanned the girl in the mirror. Her golden eyes, which swirled with green, played a dull drum to what they use to hold. Small bags set gently under her eyes, and her mouth seemed to always be set in a permanent frown. Swooping my hand along the concealer, she easily covered the light bags with her makeup placed closely towards her and slid on a wary smile.

"Yeah?" I called back, glancing back at myself in the mirror and pushing the stool back and sliding off it. Quickly, I pull my hair up into a messy bun.

Mist's head pops into the room, seeing me dressed she entered and closed the door softly. Scanning me, she smiled gently, worry clearly evident in her eyes. "Are you okay?"

I laughed, but the laugh sounds hollow even to my ears. Stopping quickly, I nodded. "Yeah, why wouldn't I?" I asked, turning to the bed and picking up the bag next to it.

Mist shrugged, frowning looking away from me. "You haven't been the same", she whispered lowly, hoping I wouldn't hear.

For a second the small forced smile on my face dropped. I turned to her and felt my eyes starting to burn but my eyelids quickly blinked down and up, stopping the tears. I've cried so much, that I promised myself the day I had ran out of the combat room that I wouldn't cry again. I've shown so much weakness over the months that the disgust towards myself had peaked and almost overwhelmed over me.

I've cried too many times to count and I fell for a guy who was just using me for his own personal gain. And got my heart broken.

You don't know that, you don't know his motives, my heart tried to argue but I shook it away. My heart had one the battle once and looked where that got me.

"Well", I mirrored what she just did and shrugged, not knowing how to reply to her answer. What was I suppose to say to the question anyways? I've realized I changed. I used up the last fiery substance in my nature the day I smacked Ike. For the past two weeks, I've become a shell of what I use to be. Yes, I know I changed and I just can't help it. No one can matter of fact. Ingel-he tried. Bless his soul, that boy had tried so much. But his efforts just didn't really work. Yeah I'm a better fighter but I was already to start with. He thought by taking me to my basic element would help with the heartbreak but it didn't.

My conscience has stopped talking to me.

I ignore Belladonna remarks and rude comments and Zotar silent glares.

Ike has stopped talking to me completely.

Mist and Ingel rarely talked to me and I'm okay with that. They've tried so hard to talk to me, but I simply pushed them away seeking solitude. I just can't help it.

Harmony has tried to use her powers to maybe help with my problem since Belladonna confronted me about my feelings one night at dinner that I was forced to attend. It's safe to say everyone in the house knows or knew how I felt about Ike. It made the heartbreak even harder to deal with, that's one of the reasons why I wanted solitude to begin with.