// It's just you and I tonight // (A Matty Healy Fanfiction)

Day 3

"Hols?"

I hear Matty's voice as a muffled whisper through my dreams.

"Hoooools! Wakey wakey!"

I open my eyes. Matty is looking through the window into our cabin, this makes me jump and I instantly worry about what I must look like. He waves and gives a little smile, "I'll wait out here!" he says and I nod as he disappears from view. I look around. There's nobody here and I can see that they've all taken their backpacks away too, I remember why. Thorpe Park. Me and Matty are alone today. I grab some clothes and jump in the shower, the thin trickle of water isn't exactly enjoyable but it'll do.

I start to think of the practicalities of having sex with Matty... am I actually ready for that? is he using me as a one night stand or does he genuinely care about me? will he have protection with him? what do I do if he doesn't? All these questions go round my head and I begin to feel more and more anxious at the idea. I always thought my first time would be special... is it slutty of me to do it with a guy I've known for 2 days? it just feels like I've known him so much longer than that...

"Hey babe!" he smiles as I step out of the cabin into the hot summer air.

"What time is it?" I ask

"Ummm..." he checks his phone "10:47"

"Oh... sorry! I've wasted some of our day!" Why did I have to wake up so late, ugh we have so much less time now!

"No worries, babe, no worries! We still have..." he checks his phone again and begins to count on his fingers "like... 7 hours left!" He says triumphantly

"Okay I guess that's fine! have they stopped serving breakfast yet?" My stomach starts to rumble

"Yeah but I got them to put aside some stuff for you! Just in case" he grins at me and I think how sweet that is, he'd have to have walked all the way to the canteen just to do that! Maybe he does have feelings for me?

We walk up, hand in hand. The place is deserted! all the younger kids are on sessions and everyone else is on the trip! I think of the amount of freedom we have and feel myself smiling. We get to the canteen and Matty brings me a tray with every breakfast option on it; eggs, bacon, hash browns, toast, jam, a bowl of porridge, black pudding and cereal.

"I didn't know what you wanted!" he shrugged "so I got it all!" I grin and look up at him

"It's perfect!" I laugh and begin to eat.

"So, how come you're here this summer?" he asks after a minute or so of silence "I mean, every one's here for a reason!"

"Well my parents need their holiday time to be spent with each other and not me apparently... so I come here every year! What about you?"

"Same here!" he says with a grin "I used to go to this Camp in Yorkshire... a dump really, but when you've been there every summer since you were 6, you get to love a place! I can't go there now though" he smiles fondly at the memory

"Oh, how come you can't go there now?" I ask curiously

"I got... I got banned... last year"

"Oh. right... mind me asking what for?" I feel rude asking but I need to know

"Well I 'spose... coke.... was probably the clincher..." he scratches his head and looks up at me through his eyebrows with a sad expression on his face. I feel so bad for him, I really do! it's one thing to do coke a couple times and regret it but it's quite another to be fully addicted for more than a year at the age of 17.

"Oh" I say quietly. Even though I already knew this, it doesn't make it easier hearing it from him

"Look, I will totally get it if you want nothing to do with me... You're too good for me Hols, everyone's saying it! I don't need pity... or help or anything I just need a friend right now... or maybe something more than that... I dunno, maybe that was too far, I like you Hols! Please don't just go as soon as you know my secret, that's what a lot of them do... I'm sorry" he gets up to leave but I stand too

"Wait" I say carefully, he looks at me "I like you too. And... and a bad habit isn't going to make me abandon you! Let's have this day together and let's... let's forget about all the problems and just have today, okay? and whatever happens tomorrow, happens tomorrow! yeah?" He smiles but the light doesn't quite reach his eyes

"I fucking love you, Hols" he mumbles and smiles properly this time. We hug and stand there for a while. He smells like expensive aftershave and cigarettes and I want nothing more than to hold him like this forever.

"Come on babe" he says after a while, "let's have the fucking best day ever!" he grins and we run out of the canteen hand in hand. Down the hill, to the cabins, across the grass, through the woods, past the lake, through the last bit of trees, across the green and to the pavilion.

"What are we doing here?" I ask, breathless from the running

"You'll see, Hols" he says, panting and grinning cheekily.

We walk into the building through the double doors at the front and turn left to face a door I've never been through before. We open it and are in a tiny hallway with a door on either side. Matty doesn't hesitate in pushing the door on the right open. As he does so, I notice the small gold plaque on the door reads 'Young Stars Theatre Group Storeroom' I follow Matty inside and I'm amazed by what I see.

The room is small and rectangular with one large window on the side facing outwards which looks across the green. On every wall there are 1 or more racks of costumes. Dresses of every colour of the rainbow, suits in ever pattern you can imagine, outfits from every era and possible story line imaginable! Above the racks are shelves stuffed with boxes labelled with things like 'swords', 'masks', '60s wigs', 'skulls ect.' and 'gangsters'. I step further into the room and see that the floor is littered with similar boxes; 'platform boots', 'punk', 'swan lake' and 'tap shoes' being among the titles. Matty puts his hands on either side of my face and kisses me like he did yesterday only more passionate, I hold him tightly and we stand there kissing in absolute ecstasy for I don't know how long. When we finally pull away he keeps his hands on my face, he licks his lips and whispers

"Let's have some fun"

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Sorry if this chapter was a bit long! I'm getting a little carried away I think!

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