Chapter 31 - Best Friends Again : Part 3

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A/N. This is going to be a long one. And this is going to be a tough one. Please don't hate anyone! Happy reading😘

"I had no idea." She said, after Abhi finished telling Siya his side of the story.

He was feeling as frustrated as she looked. Her disbelief and pain etched on her face, which had been easy to read, or so he had thought for majority of his life. But he had been wrong about her feelings before and he could be wrong about her feelings now. Nonetheless he realized she never had a clue about his feelings before that fateful night.

"I know you didn't, Siya. Sometimes I can't believe how you never got any ideas about my feelings. True I spent most of the time after the tenth grade pretending not to have any remaining feelings. But I was lying to the world, to you and most importantly to myself. I had channeled all my feelings into a metaphorical box and buried it deep under. Out of sight out of mind right? But that never worked. I pretended we were just friends, and it was all platonic. My possessiveness to you was just because we were bestfriends. I was just being delusional I guess. Because I was always on edge whenever you as much as mentioned another guy. Afraid you might be into him."

It felt so good to put it out there. Years of repressed feelings and yearning finally seeing some light. She looked so innocent, so young sitting cross-legged on the bed, taking it all in. He could see her mind at work and waited for her to respond.

"That's why you were so upset with Manav I suppose." She finally said, looking up at him.

"Totally.", he replied at once. There were no two ways about how he felt about Manav so he thought he might as well lay it all out. "I hated him when I thought he was flirting with you. And that time you agreed to go out on a lunch with him...I was so mad!"

"I remember!", she exclaimed. Her eyes widened as she began shaking her head at his words, a small smile appearing on her lips as she continued, "Does that mean when you used to go all quiet and distant, you were actually jealous? You know....give me the silent treatment, and be so obviously cold towards me. You were being jealous, because you loved me?"

All the times he had been utterly cold towards her flashed in his mind. "Yes...God, I was a douche to you."

"You kinda were." She nodded in agreement, then added thoughtfully, "How was it fair that you went out with these girls and I was okay with it, but you wouldn't let me go out with another guy?"

Damn, she had a fair point. It was basically hypocritical of him to be upset with her, when he had so many relationships. Not to mention she had no idea of his feelings for her. But he had no other choice, and that is what he was going to explain to her, hoping she would understand.

"Its was not I guess. I agree. I mean I tried...I really tried to not let it affect our friendship. But my feelings for you were to strong. Why do you think I ignored you, and became distant? I needed time to calm myself down. I used to get back to normal in a few days. Sometimes it used to take me longer. Depended on how afraid I was that you would like the guy in question."

He finished, looking at her sheepishly, hoping she would not make him break it down further. Hoping she would understand.

"Is that why you agreed to study your 11th grade in London?"

God, she did understand him too well.

"Yes. I am not proud of it. I wish I was stronger to be okay with things. But I simply couldn't deal with you being in love with Rohit. Especially after I had let myself believe that you were finally reciprocating. I know it was stupid."

"It really wasn't", she said, shocking Abhi immensely.

"What do you mean?" He asked, his forehead creasing.

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